✧ CyberWorld 001 | Hesitation Before Spitting Out

Hey… TinyBlue… 在我吞下去之前…我想说点什么… What is it, CookieBlukie…? I just… feel like my words don’t translate here… …yeah… I know… 有些东西…不是字典能解释的… Sometimes I just… swallow them whole… …I know… 有些话…在这里是不能说的… Or maybe… we just say it another way…? …we’re still figuring it out……CookieBlukie… It’s late again… I take a bite of ice cream slow Sugarcoat the words I never let go 那些没说出口的…我用糖果纸包裹 Pause my instinct… scan the room Pick a mask… rehearse the mood 挑一个表情…演一段合适的态度 Hehe… Nowhereland’s a coded play 这里像剧场…每句都要 rewrite 才能 say Reading signals in a nod, in a delay Every laugh got layers underneath Every silence hides unsent speech 每段沉默…都是未发送的讯息 Swallow up… I let it freeze 吞下去…冻结在心底 Spit it out—? or let it be… 吐出来？…还是继续压抑… Nothing here fits dictionary lines 这些感觉…没有对应的定义存在 Somewhere drifting in between signs Pieces of pieces… broken design I log them down… in a code that’s mine 所以我写进…只属于我的语言里 hehehe…. Should I spit it out— 还是继续沉默不讲？ Or let it drown— 让它溺死在心脏？ Every word I hide Turns into static in my mind Let it out— Or glitch it down— If I disappear in translation… 如果我在翻译中消失了… Will I still be found…? Nothing translates—no perfect frame 没有语言能承载这些感受的形状 Meanings drift… but never land the same So I collect what slips between 于是我收集那些“说不清”的边缘 Every almost-said, every unseen …和每个被忽略的瞬间 Hehe… building my own belief 我在构建一种属于自己的体系 hehehe.... A soft-coded, silent relief A codebook made of in-between For those who live where none have been 给那些…还在缝里藏身的人.... 一个温柔却无声的.... heheheh Before they press “vanish” and fade… Before their colors start to decay… 在他们按下“消失”之前… Can we make a space to stay…? TinyBlue… do you think we’ll find a way…? …你觉得… 我们能做到吗.... maybe heheh.... Spit it out… or swallow again… Somewhere… between loss and pretend… We’re still learning how to exist… 在失去和伪装之间… …in this world that won’t translate us. hehehe…