[Verse 1] I woke up to a note from myself, Said, “Kid, you’re on your own again.” Coffee tastes like bad decisions, And I’m wearing yesterday’s skin. I called my mom — straight to voicemail, Guess ghosts don’t pick up phones. Dad sent a thumbs-up emoji From somewhere I don’t belong. [Chorus] I’m an apparent orphan, Got parents still alive. They’re just lost in their own reruns, Trying to survive. Love’s on permanent vacation, Faith’s been furloughed without pay. I’m laughing while I’m breaking — Guess irony’s my middle name. [Verse 2] Therapist says, “You’re self-aware,” Yeah, that’s half the problem here. I keep journaling my trauma Like it’ll sign a record deal next year. Every hug’s a tax deduction, Every friend’s an unpaid shrink. If I start crying in a Target aisle, At least I’m saving on the drinks. [Chorus] I’m an apparent orphan, No one died, but it feels that way. They’re alive in the suburbs, I’m the ghost that got away. Family photos look like fiction, Smiles cropped out of frame. I’m laughing while I’m bleeding — Guess irony’s my middle name. [Bridge] Yeah, I’ve got abandonment issues With subscription renewal dates. Even my reflection left me For someone who still prays. But hell, if loneliness had royalties, I’d be rich enough to stay — In a house built out of silence, Where all my echoes play. [Final Chorus / Outro] I’m an apparent orphan, But it’s fine, I’ll write it down. Turn my therapy receipts Into songs for half this town. If heartbreak had a punchline, I’d be killing every show. Yeah, I’m laughing while I’m dying — It’s the only way I know.
