© Exidious 2025 _____________ ‼️- https://x.com/ExidiousMusic ‼️- https://www.youtube.com/@TKProductionz ‼️- https://spoti.fi/3EuuW8C _____________ Thirteen years old they told me what it was (I didn’t get it) just knew my old man looked tired and it got worse every year a little less of him there but I still showed up He still smiled, man Even when he couldn’t sit up, even when the room smelled like hospitals even when he forgot what day it was he didn’t forget me I watched him turn from strong hands to twitching fingers from walking the yard to just… lying there TV on but eyes barely tracking it Ten years of pieces fallin’ off the man I knew And I kept going even when it hurt even when I’d leave the room and punch the steering wheel cry in the parking lot and then come back in like nothing cracked They told me to be strong but they weren’t watching him fade they didn’t hold his hand when it stopped squeezing back I buried him at twenty-three picked the songs, wrote the speech no family stepped in just me and that casket and the sky never felt so low He was the only one who knew me whole Now I carry that alone and no drop, no bass, no scream can fill that hole But I scream anyway I used to dream he’d stand up again say my name with the voice he had not the voice the disease left behind But time doesn't give things back it just drags like these nights like this grief It’s been years but I still see him in the mirror in my shoulders in the way I breathe when I’m trying not to cry He’s gone but his smile still knew me even at the end and that’s the only part that ever felt fair I buried him at twenty-three but I’ve carried him every day since and no one ever really saw what it did to me what it took His smile still knew me and that’s what I hold when the rest slips away (“Still knew me… still knew me… still…”)