Ruins of Belief

I’m walking circles in the ruins of belief... Tracing constellations that don’t mean what they used to mean Every word I built my life on... Every truth I held feels... And I keep whispering, please, Don’t take this last one from me How do you believe in yourself when you see the code? When the gears of life just turn, indifferent and cold? I keep trying to feel something real But it slips through my hands... I’ve tried faith in reason, faith in pain Faith in love, it breaks the same Every system folds, every creed dissolves And I’m left staring at a truth that never evolves! How do you find meaning when you know it’s all meaningless? How do you wake up when you’ve already confessed, that the dream is a mirror and you’re just a reflection begging for purpose in your own imperfection? I scream into the silence, no echo, no sign Tell myself I matter just to waste more time! I’ve mapped out existence I’ve seen the design But I can’t live inside the lines... I keep building altars to what I can’t! Praying to ghosts that won’t reprieve! If life’s just a story, then why can’t I write....an ending that feels right!? I can’t pretend I don’t see through it all The curtain, the stage, the cosmic stall Still I ache to believe, even knowing it’s fake Because disbelief doesn’t make the pain break So I tear open my chest just to prove I’m here! Feed my doubt till it disappears! And in the dark, where the logic ends I’m just a man, begging the void to pretend... Please fucking help me Please tell me I’m wrong Tell me there’s something worth believing in! Tell me this is more than a song... Please fucking help me Please tell me I’m wrong Tell me there’s something worth believing in Tell me this is more than a song Please fucking help me Please tell me I’m wrong Tell me there’s something worth believing in Tell me this is more than a song Please fucking help me Please tell me I’m wrong... I’m walking circles in the ruins of belief Tracing constellations That don’t mean what they used to mean...