A weight I didn't realize I was holding Like falling through seven floors of concrete Like a rock lying heavy on my chest Never letting me feel my best Ruining so many of my days and nights Turning upbeat songs into sad lullabies Always feeling like something should be there Missing something I cannot declare Maybe it's the right decision to move on Maybe I will finally write a happy song Maybe I will learn to love myself If I'm not welcome in Heaven, then I'll rule in Hell I'll become the Queen I was always meant to be I'll embrace myself and I will wipe my tears I'll trace fingers softly on my skin Loving myself is no longer a sin There is no one to impress any longer And out of this battle, I'll emerge stronger What doesn't kill you, you know how that goes I'll yet make a smile out of eternal woes Goddamn, was I holding all that weight? Carrying it selflessly, while you celebrate Kept my end of the deal, while you cheated yours Now alone I'll be weathering life's blows Better alone than in bad company, they say I'll drop all that's weighing me down into decay Because if you cannot appreciate all that I am I'm sorry to say, you're not part of my plan Gave you more chances than dignity allows In my head, imagined our marital vows Said my "I do" and excused you Now I'm choosing me and leaving you I'll become the Queen I was always meant to be I'll embrace myself and I will wipe my tears I'll trace fingers softly on my skin Loving myself is no longer a sin There is no one to impress any longer And out of this battle, I'll emerge stronger What doesn't kill you, you know how that goes I'll yet make a smile out of eternal woes This comes harder than any words could say Still figuring out how to deal with this ache Still have to stop myself from checking on you Still find myself calling out in the dark for you But I'll grow stronger with each passing day And I'll hold back the words I should never say You don't deserve my "I love you", now or ever You'll be my never, could have been my forever And ever... I'll become the Queen I was always meant to be I'll embrace myself and I will wipe my tears I'll trace fingers softly on my skin Loving myself is no longer a sin There is no one to impress any longer And out of this battle, I'll emerge stronger What doesn't kill you, you know how that goes I'll yet make a smile out of eternal woes What doesn't kill you makes you stronger... Maybe I'll finally become bolder... Not comparing myself to the great you... Who am I? I'm starting to have a clue...
