used to be

╭─────────────────.★..─╮ used to be Song Lyrics and arrangement by SpIkEy Copyright © 2026 ꌗꉣꀤꀘꍟꌩ www.suno.com/@spikey76 ╰─..★.─────────────────╯ used to be: A track about chronic illness. ─..★.────────────────── ──────────────────.★..─ mmm… mmm… mmmhmmm... ohhh… ─..★.────────────────── Fightin' so hard, but I ain't the man I used to be Like I would be out, but that's no longer me Trapped in a shell that feels so profane When I look in the mirror, It glares back, with nothing but disdain ──────────────────.★..─ Oh, I try real hard But I just can't get going Full of self-doubt Full of Self-loathing A body full of pain Keeping me restrained And my mind, My thoughts are insane And I've nothing left, nothing left, to gain. ─..★.────────────────── mmm… ahhhhaaa mmm... ──────────────────.★..─ I drop my keys, and I just leave them on the floor ‘Cause bending down, now feels like a war Used to run for fun, now I ration every move Each step a calculation, just to make it through ─..★.────────────────── They say, “You’re strong” like it’s a compliment But strength doesn’t mean much when your mind's already spent ──────────────────.★..─ Oh, I try real hard But I just can't get going Full of self-doubt Full of Self-loathing A body full of pain Keeping me restrained And my mind, My thoughts are insane And I've nothing left, nothing left , to gain. ─..★.────────────────── ──────────────────.★..─ I mourn the man, I never buried Still alive, but my living varies Every plan I had, now burned to the ground I didn’t lose my life, but just as profound I lost myself, yeah, that's what I see No longer the man, I used to be ─..★.────────────────── ──────────────────.★..─ I didn’t choose this_, it was just fate A broken body, my mind full of hate I curse the odds, I curse my hand, I curse my luck, I curse my plans Left alone, Punished by time, Locked out, Of the life that was mine ─..★.────────────────── I scream inside, but nothing comes out I swallow the rage, and live with the doubt I’m not who I was, and now I can see I will never be the man, I used to be used to be ──────────────────.★..─ owoaoooOOOoohhh... ─..★.────────────────── Oh, I try real hard But I just can't get going Full of self-doubt Full of Self-loathing ─..★.────────────────── mmmhmmm... mmm... mmmhmmm... mmm... ──────────────────.★..─ Copyright © 2026 ꌗꉣꀤꀘꍟꌩ