You asked if I was high Well I lied — no surprise Nothing hurts worse than grieving someone alive I’m only twenty-five Trying to feel divine But I’m stuck between the past and the borderline I remember your perfume The way it haunted every room Like a warning or a wound I assume it’s only doom If I ever face the truth So I ghost and disappear — another vanishing act of youth I’m a shadow on the wall You’ll never recognize me I don’t wanna be alone But alone’s where you’ll find me 2 AM insomnia Bleeding lyrics on a beat Rotting quietly While my demons rock me back to sleep Ice all on my soul Frozen over, going cold No it’s never been for sale So don’t you dare try to control Purple swirling in my cup Got me leaning when I pour Every sip another war Every war another score Iced-out wrist — blink slow, time slips Stuck on stupid, overthinking every bit Hate emotions so I drown them when I sip Bottom of a bottle never fixed Any problem I’ve been running with Pretty wreck, but why you running too? Acting bulletproof when the truth been bleeding through For what it’s worth, baby, you deserve something So be happy for everything that’s coming Even if I ain’t the one you’re loving
