The white ceiling slowly starts to breathe The second hand crawls underneath my skin Outside the window, morning smiles at me But inside this room, the night will never end I look into the mirror And there’s someone who won’t blink “I’m okay” That’s all she said But I can’t remember whose voice it was I thought I’d disappear if I fell asleep But dreams felt closer to reality The day slipped slowly through my open hands And no one ever tried to pick it up In this silent room Only my heartbeat Keeps a rhythm That doesn’t belong to me I can’t swallow I can’t spit it out Yesterday is rotting in my throat I close my eyes I close my eyes But there are still more versions of me A broken voice is covering my ears Dragging a nameless morning through the dark I’m nobody I can’t become anybody And once again today I’m playing the part of me The shadows lined up against the wall One by one, they pass me by Only the shape of a smiling mouth Has gotten better at pretending than yesterday Maybe there was never A place to call my home Only these shoes by the doorway Still waiting for someone to come It wasn’t the world that broke It was me The one who used to watch it And the prettier the sunrise gets The more my tears lose their color I can’t swallow I can’t spit it out Yesterday is rotting in my throat I close my eyes I close my eyes But there are still more versions of me Behind the shattered mirror A stranger is smiling back at me Where did I leave My real name? I can’t swallow I can’t spit it out Tomorrow is rotting in my chest I open my eyes I open my eyes But the whole world keeps distorting This broken voice These scars that won’t disappear I’ll carry every one of them And face another morning I’m nobody I can’t become anybody And still today I’m breathing
