BANDO OK IM NOT OKAY Feeling dead inside so you know I barely smile Can’t find purpose on this Earth and it hurts I ain’t goin’ lie, sometimes I think about taking my own life Stuck in such a dark place, you couldn’t even see a light Slowly started fading further away every single night I had to fight for one thang or another At war with depression Got me asking questions Like, is this God? Or the Devil testing me? Steady stressing me, trying his best to see me bleed In misery I been talking to the ceiling like, “Why me?” Trying to find a little peace in the IV Of this life that keeps draining my soul, Every door that I knock on got a “no” Bills due, phone dead, trust gone, Same dark room with the same sad song Friends changed, love faded, hope thin, I keep losing every time I try to win But I’m still ten toes, though my legs feel weak, Still got fire somewhere underneath I might cry, I might crack, I might cuss at the sky, But I won’t let one bad night decide how I die (Yeah, yeah) Let the tears fall down, let ’em wash this pain, (Real shit) I survived every storm that was meant to break If I’m breathing, then there’s something left to save, Even a tiny-ass spark can light up a grave I’m still breathing, still reaching, still searching for a reason Still here, still fighting through the darkest fucking season difference is this shit aint fuckin leaving for any reason other then watching me suffer Stuck in my own misery .yeah, now try to imagine having to live in a shell of the person you used to be it in all actuality its nothing less then a tragedy Factually, I’m still here but right now ain’t worth my while Feeling dead inside so you know I barely smile Can’t find purpose on this Earth and it hurts I ain’t goin’ lie, sometimes I think about taking my own life Stuck in such a dark place, you couldn’t even see a light Slowly started fading further away every single night I had to fight for one thang or another At war with depression Got me asking questions Like, is this God? Or the Devil testing me? Steady stressing me, trying his best to see me bleed In misery If I can make it through this minute, I can make it through the night, If I can find one hand to hold, I can step back toward the light I ain’t saying I’m okay, I’m just saying I’m alive, And that’s enough to keep me here until the morning arrives Tell somebody when it’s heavy, don’t keep choking on the truth, Ain’t no weakness in the tears, ain’t no shame in needing you The Devil keeps on whispering, “You got nowhere left to go,” But I’m screaming back, “Fuck that— I’m not finished, no!” life I live right now ain’t worth my while Feeling dead inside so you know I barely smile Can’t find purpose on this Earth and it hurts I ain’t goin’ lie, sometimes I think about taking my own life Stuck in such a dark place, you couldn’t even see a light Slowly started fading further away every single night.(BANDO!)... Im At war with depression still breathing, still reaching, still searching for a reason still fighting through the darkest fucking season difference is this shit aint fuckin leaving for any reason other then watching me suffering Stuck in my own misery yeah, now try imagine having to live in a shell of the person you used to be it in all actuality its nothing less then a tragedy Factually, I’m still here One more sunrise That’s all I got left...Life I live right now ain’t worth my while Feeling dead inside, so you know I barely smile Can’t find purpose on this Earth and it hurts, I ain’t gon’ lie Sometimes the weight get so heavy I question if I even try Stuck in such a dark place you couldn’t even see a light Slowly started fading further away every single night Had to fight for one thang or another, at war with depression Got me asking questions like is this God or the Devil testing me Steady stressing me, tryin’ his best to keep my soul bleeding Stuck in misery, every breath feel like it’s barely breathing Barely smile, barely breathe, barely hold it together This life I live right now ain’t worth my while, never Dead inside, fading every night, can’t find the light At war with the dark, soul still bleeding, still fighting the fight Mind racing circles, same questions on repeat Is the pain temporary or is this the permanent seat Devil in the details or God in the silence Either way the pressure keep building, no guidance Tried to outrun the shadows but they live in my chest Every “I’m fine” just another lie I confess Depression got the upper hand, got me questioning existence But I’m still here writing, still here resisting the distance Barely smile, barely breathe, barely hold it together This life I live right now ain’t worth my while, never Dead inside, fading every night, can’t find the light At war with the dark, soul still bleeding, still fighting the fight (Bando Barely smile) but I’m still here tho. (Bando be the logo!)
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