[Chorus] I laugh to keep from crying I'm cynical... there's no denying [whispered] Sometimes, you know.... I just don't wanna feel... [bass drop] [hook] Totally burnt out, can't get my words out executive function is really in doubt... Trying to fit in, but I'm just sinkin', My masking ability's beginning to weaken [rap] Neuro divergent, at fifty two... Never fit the mold, so what else is new? Put me with my crew cause They all get it too,. But Our jokes all get people confused, They just don't understand how my mind works... It's like a maelstrom, A thought surge [bass drop] Sounds are too loud, Lights are too bright, Smells are intense, my clothes are too tight! Your nose is whistling, can't you hear it? It's driving me... ape shit! [breakdown] [rap] I'm fidgeting cause I can feel my socks I can only focus on the ticking clock Somebody's clicking their pen... There's that weird smell again... The lights are flickering.... Your nose is whistling... [instrumental] When people are talking, I can't keep up... So I say nothing..... Till I suddenly have to blurt out the random thought that made me chuckle.... [interlude, fast talking] But I can't explain it because it involves lots of obscure side-references and tangential connections.. wait, those are kind of the same thing.. Anyway, as i was saying... [outro] The world is so intense and insane, But laughter helps to ease the pain I laugh when i'm nervous, I laugh when I'm scared I'm not unfeeling... my mind is just weird.