Verse 1 In the middle of all these tangled up fights inside my head and broken bonds with the people around, I kept running after these made-up versions of who I figured I had to turn into someday. Always feeling smaller when surrounded by crowds, stuck in this never-ending rush of inner mess, Trying so hard to grab hold of some kind of higher spot that didn't mean a thing in the long run. This constant nudge from deep down pushed me toward taking charge without really knowing why, Piling on more and more layers of mix-up that started eating away at my sense of being okay inside, Right up until the whole pile of trouble just fell apart because it couldn't hold itself together anymore, And there I was, facing how worn out I got from dragging through that drawn-out storm of feelings. Chorus And now here I am, just sitting in this heavy kind of hush where the last bits of racket start to fade out slow, Pulling in these long breaths of steady calm in the peacefulness I've been building little by little. Done with wrestling all those leftover marks from the old hassles and questions that wouldn't let go, Finally settling into this easy kind of okay with the heart of what makes me who I am. You know, the way we get through all this isn't about going it alone up some steep climb to nowhere, It's more like this web of back-and-forth that pulls everybody in to lean on each other. Right here in this solid quiet, I'm starting to catch on to things I missed out on before, The kind of living that's all wrapped up in what we do together, sticking around no matter what. Verse 2 All those pulls from where I started in the family lineup or the same old habits we all got stuck in at home, Had me putting on these weighty covers that held back whatever real part of me wanted to show. My aims got knocked sideways, kind of like a road that twists off without you seeing it coming or knowing better, Making me go after some hold on things in those fuzzy stretches when everything felt unsure. But chasing like that turned rough after a while, digging in these deep cuts that stuck around inside, Got me to stop and look back over the way I'd been heading without ever second-guessing it. Then this soft kind of knowing showed up, throwing light on all the tales I'd been telling myself to get by, And it took apart that whole setup of being on edge that had been running how I went about everything. Chorus And now here I am, just sitting in this heavy kind of hush where the last bits of racket start to fade out slow, Pulling in these long breaths of steady calm in the peacefulness I've been building little by little. Done with wrestling all those leftover marks from the old hassles and questions that wouldn't let go, Finally settling into this easy kind of okay with the heart of what makes me who I am. You know, the way we get through all this isn't about going it alone up some steep climb to nowhere, It's more like this web of back-and-forth that pulls everybody in to lean on each other. Right here in this solid quiet, I'm starting to catch on to things I missed out on before, The kind of living that's all wrapped up in what we do together, sticking around no matter what. Bridge I'm through with trying to patch over whatever I thought I was missing or coming up short on, Turning my eyes out to the ways we connect where the solid kind of toughness really comes from. In that back-and-forth of what we share and the push toward something good for more than just me, I'm moving ahead not cut off by myself but planted right down in the real stuff of every day. All the jumble eases off step by step, sort of like some upset that finally levels out on its own, Opening up this wide-open way of seeing and getting my insides lined up straight again. Verse 3 These days are rolling out easier now, with a lighter touch and some new sense of what it's all for, Where even the small ways I join in are plenty to cover over those empty spots that used to nag. No more of that big noise from not being sure, just this even flow of what's actually going on, Here in the calm, I've taken hold of those pieces of me that were there from the start without me noticing. Some kind of built-in sense steered me right through all the thick parts of getting lost and pushed around, Landing me in this spot of real ease where the tight spots don't call the shots anymore. While those big swings of heavy emotions pull away at last into something still and settled, I'm putting it all back together inside this wrap-around quiet that's mine once more. Outro (Repeat Chorus softly, with acoustic strumming fading out) Here I am, just sitting in this heavy kind of hush where the last bits of racket start to fade... (You know, the way we get through all this isn't about going it alone...) Right here in this solid quiet, I'm starting to catch on... sticking around no matter what.
