Dear father I’m sorry for the years wasted The time gone The life tasted Could you feel me when I was just a little one? Could you feel it in your heart your time was close to done? Did you know how you would cross that bridge? Making mansions in heaven make mental anguish? Made it here, in spite of fear, can I make it over? A want, or a need, bitch to hell if I’m sober. Make or break it, life played like a game of Jenga Pull one piece, and you’ll see, how it all fall over. I used to feel the piece was you, but now that don’t seem true. An empty moment, sitting in my pit of a heart. A pitiful start, self hatred that child’s dictated. Control that’s related, ready a beating, I waited. A corner of shame and of love most negated. I won’t, deny, all the time, that I’ve felt you. My heart ripped opened instantly, thank you. For love had but not having the chance to show. Always heard of it, a legend of life that I know. But I know And now Im prepared to show it. The torch passed, unlit, but I can light it. Make it flicker in the darkness, brighter and brighter I cherish the moments that I can remember How can I have a childhood if my memories shattered? Pieces cracked down, and stepped on, they never mattered. A hole in the mirror, cant make the face flattered. I see those cracks and they bleed when my arms are tattered. Braille for the lonely, a self written tale I still feel the moments in vivid detail. A dance and a trace, drip and walk the red carpet You’re famous now, footprints showing a target. But who pulls the trigger on the lonely? But who makes the call of the unholy? But who makes the call, takes time, slowly But who taught the love, who showed me? Taken a back, can I get my life on track Or am I doomed to derail, this a lot to unpack But you know what they say, keep an animal in a cage The cage breaks way, the animal makes it on stage. Art, the great healer Time, the great stealer I can’t conceal her She’s stronger, I feel her