✦ 𝕭𝖆𝖉 𝕳𝖆𝖇𝖎𝖙𝖘 ✦〔06 ▸ 07〕

Uh-huh... Yeah... I know I should quit... But some habits feel like home. 3 AM and my mind won’t rest Another fake smile sitting on my chest Phone light glow in a dark room Watching my life like a rerun loop (again...) Overthinking every little thing Turning small cuts into suffering People say “just let it go” Like healing’s something simple I got bad habits Staying up too late Pushing good people away Then wondering why they fade (why they fade...) Too good at hiding pain Too used to taking blame I know it’s killing me slow But I don’t know how to change Bad habits Living inside my head Turning silence into dread Fighting wars inside my bed (inside my bed...) Bad habits Heart racing for no reason Cold even in summer season Trying hard just to keep breathing (mm...) And nobody notices. I scroll through dreams I never touch Compare myself way too much Everybody looks alive online While I’m barely surviving my mind (keep smiling...) I say “I’m fine” like it’s automatic Even when life turns cinematic I hate how I sabotage peace The second things get sweet Always thinking worst-case scenes Burning holes through all my dreams I got a soul that won’t sit still And a heart too tired to heal Bad habits Living inside my head Turning silence into dread Fighting wars inside my bed (inside my bed...) Bad habits Heart racing for no reason Cold even in summer season Trying hard just to keep breathing Maybe I got too used to pain Maybe chaos feels safe Maybe I’m scared If I finally heal... I won’t recognize myself (oh...) Bad habits But I’m still here somehow Still standing here right now Even when my thoughts get loud (so loud...) Bad habits Maybe one day I’ll let go Maybe one day I’ll grow But tonight I’m just surviving slow Yeah... Just surviving slow.