[INTRO] [Dry fingerpicked guitar. One stone struck once. Tape hiss.] I forgot what it felt like to hope for tomorrow. [VERSE 1] I spent so long counting the damage Locked every door that wouldn't open Built my bed out of almosts Kept my heart under lock and stone But something changed Somewhere in the wreckage A little fire refused to die Now I can feel my blood moving Like my body finally knows I'm alive [PRE-CHORUS] No trumpet No miracle No voice from above Just this strange little feeling That maybe I've had enough [CHORUS] I can feel it I can feel it Under my skin Something waking Something breaking Something letting me in I was waiting For a reason For somebody to tell me why Now I'm standing In the doorway And I don't wanna run this time [POST-CHORUS] Oh I'm still here Oh I'm still here And for the first time it feels good right here. [VERSE 2] I don't need to erase the scars They remember what I survived I don't need to become somebody I just wanna be here for my life The old ghosts still come and go They knock sometimes I don't let them in I've spent too long mistaking numbness for peace and fear for fate [PRE-CHORUS] No guarantees No perfect ending No promise it won't hurt Just both feet on the ground And a pulse in the dirt [CHORUS] I can feel it I can feel it Under my skin Something waking Something breaking Something letting me in I was waiting For a reason For somebody to tell me why Now I'm standing In the doorway And I don't wanna run this time [BRIDGE] [Everything drops except guitar, breath, distant choir] I wasn't broken I was just tired From all those years I called surviving, living Maybe this is what it means To come back Not untouched Not healed clean Just here Just breathing Just me Just seen [FINAL CHORUS] I can feel it I can feel it God, I'm feeling everything All the sorrow All the beauty All the weight I couldn't carry I was waiting For the daylight Like it owed me something back Now the sun is on my face And I'm not looking back [OUTRO] [Percussion disappears. Dry guitar. Tape warble.] I'm still here I'm still here I'm still here And somehow... I want to stay.
