Monsters in Me

[Verse 1] Lately I’ve been choking on my silence Can’t explain the shit that runs through my head These ain’t just thoughts — they’re screams in a cage Clawin’ at the walls, leakin’ into everything I said I fake my smiles, nod like I’m okay But I’m seconds from breakin’ every goddamn day I’m hangin’ by a thread and it’s cuttin’ deep This ain’t just sadness — this is a war I never sleep And I ain’t askin’ for a rescue line I just wanna know if I’m worth the time But hell, no one’s noticed I’m bleedin’ slow So maybe I’ll just let go… [Pre-Chorus] Let me fall, let me break Under all the shit I never said Let me die, I can’t fake Living with this mess inside my head If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me… Will it set me free? ⸻ [Verse 2] What’s the point of holdin’ on to nothin’? They tell me “stay strong” — they ain’t seen nothin’ You ever screamed into a wall and it screamed back? You ever smiled while your whole damn soul cracked? I ain’t lookin’ for pity, I just want peace A quiet room, no thoughts, no heat I’m so damn tired of being “tough” I’ve been strong so long, I forgot how to give up And I ain’t suicidal, I’m just done I don’t wanna fight, I just wanna be numb Can’t stand the mirror, can’t stand the past Can’t live in a world where I’m fading fast [Pre-Chorus] So let me fall, let me break Under all the shit I never said Let me die, I can’t fake Living with this war inside my head If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me Will it set me free? ⸻ [Bridge] If you saw under my skin, you’d flinch You’d back away, call it “just a phase” But you wouldn’t last an hour in this brain And I’ve lived decades in this cage If you knew what I’ve survived You’d know why I keep it all inside This ain’t drama, this ain’t weak It’s just me, holdin’ on with bloody teeth I ain’t tryin’ to make no scene I’m just done pretendin’ I’m clean I’m not okay. I’m barely here. And that’s been true for too many years ⸻ [Verse 3 – Breakdown Verse] I got bruises no one’s ever touched Wounds they say “don’t talk about too much” I walk around like I belong But I’m a ghost in every song You wanna know why I drink or disappear? ‘Cause silence is louder than fear You wanna know why I never call? ‘Cause I already know you won’t catch the fall I’m tired of bein’ told I matter By people who wouldn’t notice the shatter If I’m the only one carryin’ this pain Then what’s left of me to save? ⸻ [Final Chorus] So let me fall, let me break Under all the shit I never said Let me die, I can’t fake Living with these voices in my head If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me Will it set me free? Will it set me free? ⸻ [Outro – Fade Out] (whispers over harmonica fade) Can’t breathe… can’t sleep… Still here, but I’m buried deep Ain’t no hero in this story Just a man, broken and bleeding softly Don’t save me. I’m too far gone Whisper my name when I’m dust and gone (“monsters… can’t breathe… get me outta here…”) (faint fiddle fades with wind) (fade to black)