Why Do I Even Like You?!

It’s so annoying to admit I miss you Not like I need you or anything! …But maybe—just maybe—can we hit rewind? Being alone in my room’s your fault, not mine! Don’t get the wrong idea, but… If you gave me one chance—I might fix things this time... Why don’t you text me?! Why don’t you call?! Not that I care or anything—but still! I could change—if I wanted. Why do I even like you at all?! Did you miss those dumb old days or what?! I miss your voice, idiot... You really messed me up, you know that?! I held back, stayed cool—but you played with my heart! Stupid ego, stupid love Now all I hear is your voice in my head saying: “Too slow... again.” Whatever... Hey, I’m not saying “sorry,” okay?! I’m just—done with this lonely silence. ...Maybe. Was it my laugh? My walk? My freckles—what?! Not like I care, but still— You didn’t have to leave like that If it’s my fault, then say it—coward. But don’t go pretending you were innocent. You messed with my heart— And I still… never mind. Why don’t you answer?! Why won’t you care?! You said I was cute once—you liar! I could be sweet—if I wanted… But why do I even like you at all?! I keep dreaming about us, you know?! Dumb, dumb, dummy!! You broke something I didn’t even know could break. I tried so hard not to fall—but you pulled me in. Now I’m stuck thinking about you—every dumb second. And all you said was: “Maybe next time, dummy.” You were the one who stayed through my storms. You laughed at my jokes even when they were bad. Now I’m cutting and pasting my heart back together, But—you’re still in every piece… These feelings won’t shut up—they’re driving me crazy! If you don’t like me back, then just say it already!! I’m tired of pretending you don’t matter… And you still said: "Why do you even like me?” Like I’d tell you that now, stupid. Maybe someday… when I’m over you... ...I’ll say it without blushing. Until then— Don’t get the wrong idea, okay? Just don't get the wrong idea...