Maybe… These become wasted words… Left unspoken. Maybe… For those willing… To look deeper… Something… Finally reveals itself. There comes a moment When a thought… Becomes a feeling. A feeling… Too heavy… To ignore. Words stop sounding Like words. They begin… To move. Not through ears… But through people. Knowledge… Disguises itself As certainty. Power… Begins to feel Like purpose. Purpose… Climbs another mountain… Only to discover… Wisdom… Was never waiting At the top. It was carving Its own path Through hell… The entire time. Maybe… Knowing… Has never been The destination. Maybe… Learning… Never ends. Who… Am I… Without the mask? Who… Am I… When nobody claps? Who… Am I… After the curtain falls? … Am I still… Me? My garments… Covered in color. Plaid stitched together Like contradictions. A hat… Balanced by bells. Shoes… That jingle… With every step. My face… Painted white. Like a ghost Borrowing skin. The tears Brushed across my cheeks… Not by sorrow… But by angels… Trying to remind me… I was never The performance. I scream… Without sound. Smile… While I’m breaking. My hands… Build invisible walls. I mime… Emotions… That everyone applauds… But nobody… Actually sees. Writing… Has become My confession. Because words… Never interrupt me. I understand… Nobody… Will ever love… Exactly The way I love. Or care… Exactly The way I care. That’s okay. Love… Must love. Care… Must care. Without permission. Without applause. Without witnesses. But somehow… We choose. Then blame… The choice. We kneel… To choice. We bite… The hand… That offered us… Choice. Then wonder… Why it hurts. We say… “I had no choice.” But… Who chose To believe that? A baby… Isn’t cleansed Because water Touches skin. Rain… Doesn’t grow What’s already dead. It grows… Whatever still chooses To reach… Toward light. Today… I choose… Not to drown. I choose… To feel The liquid sunshine. Even… If the flood Comes first. Maybe… These were never… Wasted words. Maybe… They were always… Waiting… For someone… To hear themselves… Inside them. Original lyrics by THOUGHTAHOLIC (@d13ov04). Sound and production by THOUGHTAHOLIC & TENGÜRA. © 2026 THOUGHTAHOLIC & TENGÜRA | An Indiana-Istanbul collaboration.
