Blame

Copyright L0stKydz, all rights reserved [Verse] They’re putting these thoughts inside my head... Asking, what is there to regret? Forgetting everything they said to me, Oh, Lord, I need a reset… Drowned in memories and constant dreams of scenes I wanna forget… I don’t know what's going on inside of my head… I don’t know what's going on inside of… I don’t… (I don’t-…) [Instrumental] All I know is when I close out my thoughts and let others in. They look into my eyes and say I don’t know shit… They say I’m a nuisance and I shouldn't exist… So, am I to blame? [Verse] Forcing me to only talk to the person who was always by my side... Saying that I loved you and missed you, only to realize it was the last time… Seeing the form of you at this funeral, hearing people tell constant lies… “I loved you, I miss you.” Then, where were you when she was alive? Maybe I’m being sensitive, but I don’t give a fuck... [Instrumental] How can I see her, how could I grieve… Only to watch everyone else around me never losing an ounce of sleep… Only for them to say it’s easy? But what about me? I’m forgetting how she looked; forgetting how she speaks… I wanna believe it’s painless, but I can barely breathe… Why does it hurt so much when I can’t even see what's damaging me? Maybe I’m suffocating from the pressure of expressing, "I'm alright"... [Instrumental] They say, "They'll call you out of respect, but only when they need me..." They say, "I am enough", that's not what I see... They say, "What have you done?" How could I be the one to take the blame? Stuck in a world filled with lies! And not just my own... But the moment I close my eyes, I rest for some time. Letting whatever consumes me drag me closer to hell... [Instrumental] [Bridge] I wanna ignore this feeling of communicating to a vacant room... But it's all that I have left, seeing her smile as she looks back at me... Despite me being all alone… [Instrumental] (I’m all alone...) [Instrumental] (Oh god, I’m all alone...) [Instrumental] They say, "They'll call you out of respect, but only when they need me..." They say, "I am enough", that's not what I see... They say, "What have you done?" How could I be the one to take the blame? Stuck in a world filled with lies! And not just my own... But the moment I close my eyes, I rest for some time. Letting whatever consumes me drag me closer to hell...