[Intro – muted guitars, light drums, off-hand ad-libs] (yeah) (oh man) Thought I knew myself… Guess not (nah) [Verse 1 – pop-rap bounce, confident tone cracking] I had a picture in my head, thought it was clear (clear) Thought I knew the man I’d be this year (this year) Said I’d be stronger, said I’d be calm (yeah) But I still lose sleep over where I went wrong (went wrong) I told everyone I’m built for this (for this) Told myself I don’t really miss (nah) But every mirror feel like a test (a test) Asking questions I been dodging since (since) [Pre Chorus – rising, pop-rock tension] I followed plans that weren’t even mine (weren’t mine) Played my role, hit my marks on time (on time) But something feels off when I say my name (my name) Like I don’t recognize the face (the face) [Chorus – big, melodic, pop-rock hook] I’m not who I thought I was (yeah) Not who I said I’d be (said I’d be) I chased a version of myself (myself) That never really felt like me (like me) I tried to grow, I tried to adjust (adjust) Still ended up lost in the rush (the rush) Guess I’m learning the hard way ‘cause I’m not who I thought I was (nah) [Verse 2 – different flow, faster, more self-aware] I said “next year I’ll have it figured out” (figured out) Funny how the doubts still hang around (hang around) I got applause for things I didn’t feel (didn’t feel) Smiles for moments that weren’t real (weren’t I used to think confidence was loud (loud) Now I see it’s staying when you’re not proud (not proud) I broke promises I meant to keep (to keep) Just to prove something I couldn’t be (couldn’t be) [Pre Chorus – rising, pop-rock tension] I followed plans that weren’t even mine (weren’t mine) Played my role, hit my marks on time (on time) But something feels off when I say my name (my name) Like I don’t recognize the face (the face) [Chorus – repeat, stronger delivery] I’m not who I thought I was (yeah) Not who I said I’d be (said I’d be) I chased a version of myself (myself) That never really felt like me (like me) I tried to grow, I tried to adjust (adjust) Still ended up lost in the rush (the rush) Guess I’m learning the hard way ‘cause I’m not who I thought I was (oh no) [Instrumental break] [Bridge – breakdown, half-time, honest] Maybe that’s not a failure (mmm) Maybe that’s just the truth (the truth) Maybe I wasn’t meant to become Who I imagined at twenty-two (yeah) I don’t hate who I am now (nah) I just don’t know him yet (don’t know him) But maybe this confusion Is where the real growth gets set (gets set) [Final Chorus – pop-rock lift, acceptance] I’m not who I thought I was (yeah) Not who I said I’d be (said I’d be) I chased a version of myself (myself) That never really felt like me (like me) I tried to grow, I tried to adjust (adjust) Still ended up lost in the rush (the rush) Guess I’m learning the hard way ‘cause I’m not who I thought- I’m not who I thought I was (yeah) But maybe that’s okay (okay) I’m done chasing ghosts of myself (ghosts) I’m learning as I change (I’m changing) I don’t need the old image fixed (fixed) I just need to keep going like this (like this) I’m not who I thought I was… But I’m closer every day (every day) [Outro – guitars ring out, calm ad-libs] (yeah…) Still figuring it out
