New keys, new room, Packed my life in the trunk, Only what I could fit in the car Left the past in the rearview Found my name in the mirror, Said it out like a vow This skin finally fits me At last I own the daylight Laugh out loud at the corner store I stride these streets like I belong here But some nights I can't shake it Can't put the day down I hit the road, new town, same ache This life, finally mine, you see? I'm living it loud, just like I wanted But this new me still knows the ache And I can't hold it all in I started over, sure But I still come undone When the room goes quiet and I'm all alone I miss my mother in the small, plain ways like a half-used mug by the sink, still warm in my head like the extra chair I keep turned toward the table learning the words we never got to say still learning how to be mother and daughter She was right there then she wasn’t and I catch her in the little house things the way I shake out a dish towel the way I leave the light on late like maybe if I keep doing them I can keep her close in my heart Here, no one knows the old me no one reaches for the wrong name everyone’s been kind to me still, kindness doesn’t fix everything I hit the road, new town, same ache This life, finally mine, you see? I'm living it loud, just like I wanted But this new me still knows the ache And I can't hold it all in I started over, sure But I still come undone When the room goes quiet and I'm all alone They say it gets easier, time makes it fade But every milestone, every choice I've made Feels like a conversation I can't start A call I can't make, a missing piece of my heart I built this new world, brick by lonely brick And all I ever wanted was for her to see it I hit the road, new town, same ache This life, finally mine, still learning who I am I'm living it loud, just like I wanted I’m healing slow, and most nights I still miss her voice so I sit with it awhile, let it move through me I started over and I’m not alone I carry her with me, wherever I go
