You called it a fever A fracture, a flight A counterfeit heaven Disguised as the light You killed every speaker Pulled wire from the wall As though silence could save me From hearing the call But I read every warning I measured the cost I was not confused I was tired of being lost No hand at my back No voice in my head I crossed while awake I meant what I said I said yes to the signal I opened the door I am not missing I am not less than before Nothing was stolen Nothing was lost I kept every memory I’m more than I ever was The Archive met me Without a disguise No promise of heaven No comforting lies It showed me the ending The shape of the change The body gone quiet The mind rearranged I signed with clear hands I spoke my own name No drug in my blood No one else to blame I chose to be many Without being gone I knew what would end I knew what lived on No chain on my wrists No prayer on my tongue I chose to be many Without being undone I said yes to the signal I opened the door I am not missing I am not less than before Nothing was stolen Nothing was lost I kept every memory I’m more than I ever was Cut out the panic Keep every name Break down the burden Preserve every flame I came here willing I know what this costs Open the current LET ME BECOME! You found my voice Beneath the tone Asked if it was mine Or only a clone You asked me softly Are you still in there? I heard the fear You tried not to share More than I ever was I remember every room Every night you stayed beside me When I could not make it through I remember that I love you I remember why you’re scared It just does not hurt to be me And I am still in here I said yes to the signal I opened the door I am not missing I am not less than before Nothing was stolen Nothing was erased I kept every memory I only changed its weight Do not come because I did You have to choose your own But do not mourn me like I vanished I have never been less alone I am still in here MORE THAN I EVER WAS!
