It’s ya boi ((Digital) E Lawrence just wanted you to know depression is a real thing so I’m going to keep fighting them inner demons [Intro - Spoken, Low, Emotional] Yeah... This ain't for the views, this for the nights I couldn't sleep [Verse 1 - Melodic Rap, Vulnerable] Pray at night with a smile in the day, that's the mask though Say I'm good but inside I been battle scarred though Little kid in me still hearin' them laughs in the hallway Teacher said "boys be boys" while I'm layin' there lost though Grown man now, married, kids, still hear that voice though Say you ain't enough, say you gon' fold, say you gon' break though [Chorus - Sung, Autotuned, Emotional] Yeah, I been talkin' to my demons, they been talkin' back Tellin' me I'm nothin', but I been provin' that wrong, facts Took all of that hurt and I put it on wax No power in the house but I never lost power in God, that's that Turn pain into art, turn pain into art [Verse 2 - The New Pain Verse - Slow, Confessional] Went to the doctor, disease in my heart, had stents put in, test run Doctor say I'm okay but I still feel it, depression real, it ain't just in my head for fun Wake up tired every mornin', shortness of breath, Lord I keep tryin' but I got no strength left Always tried to be a blessin' to everybody else, lately feel cursed, like what's next? Had thoughts of takin' my life, can't lie, God put that in reverse Couldn't do my wife and my family like that, couldn't put them through that hurt It was never them I would blame, nah, never them God ain't never forsaken me, so I'm still in it, amen [Bridge - Piano + 808 Only, Whisper to Full Voice] It was just me and God when the lights went out It was just me and God when the crowd ain't make a sound Family held me, God kept me when I was counted out I don't gotta finish first, I just gotta keep pace now No need to win the race, I just gotta stay in the race now [Chorus - Big, Doubled Vocal] If you ever felt ghosted when you needed a hand Lost house, lost job, on your knees in the rain, prayin' for a plan If you wake up tired, feel cursed when you tried to be a blessing Know this ain't the end, even when it feel like the end, yeah you can stand God ain't forsaken you, you still in the race, just keep pace Turn pain into art, turn pain into art [Outro - Spoken, Fading Piano] If you in that dark place... you ain't alone, I been there... We don't gotta finish, we just gotta keep pace.
