[Verse 1] I work from home because I have to The office is a place I can't sustain I look like someone with a flexible lifestyle Nobody sees the reason or the strain [Pre-Chorus] You think I'm fine because I showed up today But showing up was everything that I had There's no reserve, there's no second wind Every hour I spend is an hour I'll pay back [Chorus] This is what it's like on the inside Not lazy, not dramatic, not putting it on My body charges interest on existing And the debt comes due before too long [Verse 2] You ask me why I can't just push through Like willpower is the thing that I'm missing I pushed through yesterday, I pushed through last week That's exactly why I'm lying here listening [Pre-Chorus] There's a name for this — post-exertional malaise It means the effort doesn't just make you tired It means your body turns on itself for trying And the harder you push, the worse you're fired [Chorus] This is what it's like on the inside Not lazy, not dramatic, not putting it on My body charges interest on existing And the debt comes due before too long [Bridge] I had a life that moved I had plans that reached I still have both — just smaller now Just quieter Just careful [Outro] I'm not who you think you see I'm not who I used to be I'm just here Still here Getting through
