[Chorus] I lost my faith where the hurt came through Prayed for the hands that were hurting me too If love was the law, why'd they break me for years? I ran out of mercy, ran out of tears Fallen faith, still calling Your name Knees on the floor but my heart ain't the same You said they'd love me, they watched me go numb I wanted a family; I got what I've become [Verse 1] They knew every weakness, kept receipts on my pain Smiled at the table, then they tightened the chain I was just a kid trying hard to be good Doing everything a faithful child should But the ones meant to guard me made a weapon of trust Turned every soft promise to a mouthful of dust I read the words: forgive, endure, be kind Then watched them leave another bruise on my mind I asked for a sign, got silence and smoke Held onto scripture till the last thread broke Maybe heaven sees it, maybe heaven don't Maybe I was praying to a door that won't open I don't hate You, but I hate what I learned That a soul can be faithful while a whole house burns If this is a test, I have failed every part I kept my hands folded; they kept breaking my heart [Chorus] I lost my faith where the hurt came through Prayed for the hands that were hurting me too If love was the law, why'd they break me for years? I ran out of mercy, ran out of tears Fallen faith, still calling Your name Knees on the floor but my heart ain't the same You said they'd love me, they watched me go numb I wanted a family; I got what I've become [Verse 2] Don't tell me blood makes a shelter or home I've seen warm rooms where a child feels alone I've seen holy words used to bury the blame Every apology dressed up with my name They said, "God knows," like that settled the case Then walked past the damage with a straight face I kept trying to find what compassion was for While they stood on the threshold and locked every door Now I speak to the ceiling with nothing rehearsed No polished confession, just naming the worst I still want Your mercy, I still want release But belief gets expensive when pain never sleeps If You are beside me, then tell me why The people You gave me taught me how to hide I am not rebellious, I'm tired and afraid Of trusting another promise that fades [Bridge] Maybe faith is not a flame Maybe faith is saying Your name With a cracked voice, with a shaking hand When I don't understand I won't pretend this doesn't hurt I won't call their cruelty holy first If You can hear me through this broken room Meet me somewhere past the doom [Chorus] I lost my faith where the hurt came through Prayed for the hands that were hurting me too If love was the law, why'd they break me for years? I ran out of mercy, ran out of tears Fallen faith, still calling Your name Knees on the floor but my heart ain't the same You said they'd love me, they watched me go numb I wanted a family; I got what I've become [Outro] I don't have an answer, I don't have a plan Just one small question I still understand If love is still waiting beyond what they've done Then find me in pieces, before I come undone
