Now It's Only Me

now it's only me and how it could be gazing at the blinds waiting for a plane to crash or just you calling my name the dust settles on my skin now it's only me but that's how it ever was I am desperate and it is starting to show would you call my name the first blow hurts the most but isn't always the deepest I should know I shut down the blinds and pray for the blood to flow it's starting to show it was never the self it was never the others it is what it is it is what it is it just is but I am still waiting (the dust is settling) for you to call my name now it's only what it is and it's only me