[Verse 1] I sort the good suit from the hungry one Both keep my face, both know my name One says, “Stay, they need you where you are” One counts the doors and calls it shame The calendar is crowded with their needs Your small hand finds my sleeve, and I stay While somewhere past the list, a life waits With its unfinished light, a mile away [Pre-Chorus] I love you more than leaving could explain I want a room where I can hear my own heart [Chorus] I am not one clean answer I am the hand that holds and pulls away I want the life I keep postponing I want you safe beside me all the same If happiness is something we can practice Let me learn it without throwing love aside I’ll carry both truths through the weather With the selfish and the kind still side by side [Verse 2] The sink is full, the evening slips its leash A lunchbox waits beside the unpaid bill I smile at every story that you tell Then hear the other life go quiet still I’m not ashamed that I want something more I’m scared the wanting makes me hard to know So I come back to the table, pass the bread And feel the door inside me open slow [Pre-Chorus] I love you more than leaving could explain I want a room where I can hear my own heart [Chorus] I am not one clean answer I am the hand that holds and pulls away I want the life I keep postponing I want you safe beside me all the same If happiness is something we can practice Let me learn it without throwing love aside I’ll carry both truths through the weather With the selfish and the kind still side by side [Bridge] Maybe I can want without abandoning Maybe care can leave a little air Maybe I can name the thing I’m missing And still be here, still meet you there [Group Chant] Stay and change Stay and change [Final Chorus] I am not one clean answer I am the hand that holds and pulls away I want the life I’m finally reaching for I want you safe beside me all the same If happiness is something we can practice Let me build it where our lives collide I’ll carry both truths through the weather With the selfish and the kind still side by side [Outro] Still beside you Still becoming
