[Blackgaze] Drag Me Through My Twisted Mind

The ceiling bends when I close my eyes The familiar walls rearrange I count the cracks above my bed Just to remember what hasn't changed My hands are mine, I tell myself The floor is cold beneath my feet But something pulls behind my thoughts And makes a stranger out of me I know this room I know this name I know the shape Of everything So why does everything I know Feel like it's slipping out of reach? Don't let me disappear Inside the things I cannot see I'm holding on to what is real While something tears through me (I feel the ground beneath me breaking) I feel the walls begin to bend If I lose the world I'm standing in Will I find myself again? I leave the lights on in the hallway I keep the curtains open wide I need the sun to fall upon me To know the day is still alive But every thought becomes a doorway Every doorway leads below And I am tired of being pulled To places I don't want to go I call myself I say my name I trace the lines I used to know But there's a distance in my reflection And I can't tell how far it goes Don't let me disappear Inside the things I cannot see I'm holding on to what is real While something tears through me (I feel the ground beneath me breaking) I feel the walls begin to bend If I lose the world I'm standing in Will I find myself again? I KNOW MY NAME! I KNOW MY FACE! I KNOW I'M HERE! I KNOW THIS PLACE! WHY DOES MY MIND KEEP PULLING ME DOWN?! I'M STILL ALIVE! I'M STILL ALIVE! I'M STILL ALIVE! Don't let me disappear I haven't given up on me Even as the world grows distant I refuse to leave Let the ground beneath me tremble Let the sky come crashing in I will hold onto this moment I will not become the end The floor is cold The lights are on The morning comes And I am here I am here.