[Intro] I kept the match beneath my tongue So no one saw what I’d become [Verse 1] I smile when the room gets cruel I play the part they hand me like a fool Every small remark goes under my skin A little more pressure, a little less air within I fold my hands, I bite the thread Count every word I should have said You call it patience, call it grace I call it hiding in plain sight from my own face [Pre-Chorus] But the lock is wearing thin tonight And I can feel the hinges shake If I keep swallowing your knives There’ll be nothing left for me to save [Chorus] I’m screaming out the hate inside of me Let it tear through every false apology I won’t dress it up, I won’t make it sweet You don’t get to bury what you did to me I’m still here, I’m still breathing All this fury has a reason I’m screaming out the hate inside of me Until my voice belongs to me [Verse 2] I know the shape of every doubt The careful way you wore me down You left your fingerprints on every fear Then acted surprised when I disappeared I’m done confusing quiet with peace Done making myself smaller for your relief There’s a difference between healing and obeying And I’m finished being grateful for the chains you gave me [Pre-Chorus] Now the lock is breaking wide tonight No more pretending I’m okay If all this anger kept me alive Then I will give it room to say [Chorus] I’m screaming out the hate inside of me Let it tear through every false apology I won’t dress it up, I won’t make it sweet You don’t get to bury what you did to me I’m still here, I’m still breathing All this fury has a reason I’m screaming out the hate inside of me Until my voice belongs to me [Spoken Bridge] I need you to hear me clearly. I am not asking permission to feel this. I carried your words for years, and they made a home where my heart was supposed to be. But this is my body. This is my voice. And I am allowed to put the weight down. [Breakdown] No more— No more— I return your poison to the ground No more— No more— I will not let it pull me down [Final Chorus] I’m screaming out the hate inside of me Not to hurt you—just to finally breathe I won’t dress it up, I won’t make it sweet I can name the wound and still refuse defeat I’m still here, I’m still breathing Every scar became a meaning I’m screaming out the hate inside of me And now my voice belongs to me [Outro] The room is quiet after the storm I’m not the person you made me mourn My hands are open, my lungs are free The hate can leave, but I stay with me
