[INTRO | 639 HZ HUM | HEARTBEAT] [FEMALE SPOKEN] You heard, "I'm leaving." I said, "I'm hurting." You heard, "I don't want you." I said, "I can't keep living like this." You heard, "You're not enough." I said, "I need you beside me." How did "walk with me" become "goodbye?" [VERSE 1 | LOW FEMALE RAP] Two years, we're standing here, you looking at love through the eyes of fear. Every boundary sounds like I'm walking away, every time I need space you think I'm gonna stray. No. I'm telling you what I need. I'm tired, Chad, I'm fucking tired, but tired ain't gone and hurt ain't goodbye. Angry doesn't mean that my love fucking died. You search every sentence for the ending you expect, answering abandonment before I even fucking left. You call it hot and cold. Look again. I'm loving you and protecting me at the same damn time. Stop looking through your eyes. For once... LOOK THROUGH MINE. [CHORUS | EXPLOSIVE] I'M NOT DONE WITH YOU! I'M DONE ABANDONING ME! There's a difference, and I need you to see! I don't need you saving me! I need the man who loves me BUILDING NEXT TO ME! I'm not walking out! Stop mourning us like we're over WHEN I'M STILL FUCKING FIGHTING! If I wanted to leave, I wouldn't be trying this fucking hard to make you understand WHY I STAY! [VERSE 2 | FEMALE RAP] I know what we've done. I forgave you because I love you. But forgiveness isn't permission to keep repeating every wound. And love isn't me shrinking so there's enough room for you. I've been in situations where I could've fucking died. So when I tell you I'm not going back there, that's not rejection. That's me choosing life. I won't go back to places I fought to survive. Don't call that abandonment when I'm protecting the woman you say you love. [CHORUS] I'M NOT DONE WITH YOU! I'M DONE ABANDONING ME! I'm done confusing sacrifice with what love's supposed to be! I don't need rescuing! I need your hands beside mine BUILDING WHAT WE DREAM! I have dreams! And in that future, YOU WERE THERE WITH ME! Stop hearing goodbye every time I ask you to grow. If I didn't fucking love you, CHAD... I WOULD'VE LET YOU GO! [BREAKDOWN | HALF-TIME DRUMS] [FEMALE SPOKEN] Listen to me. Not your guilt. Not your fear. Me. I'm asking you to get yourself back. Not for me. For you. I can't build your half of our future and mine too, carry your fear and both our dreams, then prove every night that I love you. I do. But you have to believe me. [BUILD] You keep asking where I am. I'm asking where WE'RE GOING. You wonder who's beside me. I'm asking why YOU'RE NOT. I'm not choosing somebody else. I'm asking you TO CHOOSE YOURSELF. I remember 2424. I was on the streets. Matt looked out for me. You opened that door when I needed somewhere safe. We said we wouldn't fall in love. God, the arrogance. Because we did. Without permission. Without warning. Two years later I'm still fucking here. Quit asking whether I love you and hear what I'm actually asking for. [VERSE 3 | FAST FEMALE RAP] Don't buy me shit, don't prove it with things, don't hand me another promise wrapped up in strings. Give me consistency. Give me honesty. Give me effort when everything isn't easy. Tell me where you went. Talk when you're scared. Don't put my love through a test. Don't push me away then make me prove I'll come rescue you. That's fear. I've worn it too. We're supposed to be growing. I'm picking myself off the ground, building dreams I thought I'd never have. And I wanted you there. Not watching. Not doubting. Not draining me. Beside me. Dreaming. Working. Building. This isn't only about whether YOU feel loved. Ask if I feel supported. Ask if I feel safe. Ask if I trust you won't neglect me when everything gets hard. My fears matter too. [FINAL BUILD] Two years. Look at me. Not your past. Not your guilt. ME. Still fucking here. [FINAL CHORUS] I'M NOT DONE WITH YOU! I'M DONE ABANDONING ME! I can love you with my whole heart AND STILL HAVE BOUNDARIES! I can need some space WITHOUT WANTING TO BE FREE! I can tell you that you hurt me WITHOUT SAYING YOU SHOULD LEAVE! I don't want you behind me! I WON'T LIVE BEHIND YOU! There's a place beside me! THAT'S WHERE I'VE ASKED YOU TO STAND! BESIDE ME! HAND IN FUCKING HAND! I LOVE YOU! I'M HURT! BOTH THINGS CAN BE TRUE! Protecting myself doesn't mean I'm rejecting you! Stop asking if I love you! START ASKING WHAT LOVE NEEDS! I WANT THE DREAM! I WANT THE WORK! I WANT OUR LIFE! But I refuse to lose myself just to keep your fear quiet! [HARD STOP] [FEMALE SPOKEN] If I wanted to leave, I wouldn't be working this fucking hard to make you understand why I stay. Don't chase me. Walk with me. Don't save me. Build with me. I'm telling you I love you while asking for change. I'm not done with you, Chad. I'm done losing myself trying to prove I'm not leaving. There's a place right here beside me. That's where I've been asking you to stand. Stop looking through your fear... and look through my eyes. [FINAL HIT]
