NOT MINE Morrow — Song I [Intro — low earth drone, distant stone percussion] [deep female clean vocal] [close-mic, almost indifferent] My mother said feel the ground Know what holds you Know what you hold. Know the difference between a root And a chain [pause] My father said stand up straight If you can carry it the burden is yours [low bass enters] He was wrong. [Verse 1 — restrained] I know what weight does I know where it travels I know which wall takes the load I know what breaks when everybody keeps adding one more thing one more grief one more— Can you handle this? [small breath] Probably. That doesn’t make it mine. [Pre-Chorus] You hurt I see it You fall I see that too But seeing the wound doesn’t put my name on what cut you [Chorus — wide melodic clean] Not mine Put it down where it belongs Not mine I won’t carry what you won’t I know what I can hold I know exactly where I bend Your pain can be real and still not be my debt Don’t call it love when you hand me your weight If I didn’t make the wound you don’t get to make me pay I know what I can carry That doesn’t make it mine [Post-Chorus — low rasp] Learn the difference. [Verse 2 — darker groove] Family says we all lost her Like grief is communal property Like because I loved her I should sit inside your sorrow until everybody feels less alone [pause] No. I miss her too. That’s why I had to leave. [drums tighten] Family wanted Someone who stayed Someone who knew how to hold the room together [quiet] I’m just looking for the door so I can stop drowning in your sadness. My heart knows where the door is. [Pre-Chorus 2] You call distance cold I call it air You call boundaries abandonment because you preferred me without them [Chorus — heavier] Not mine Put it down where it belongs Not mine I won’t carry what you won’t I know what I can hold I know exactly where I bend Your pain can be real and still not be my debt Don’t call it love when you hand me your weight If I didn’t make the wound you don’t get to make me pay I know what I can carry That doesn’t make it mine [Instrumental drop — stone scrape, sub pulse] [soft clean vocal] [Bridge — tension building] I am not cruel because I won’t drown beside you I am not selfish because I know where I end I don’t owe you my nervous system because you had a bad day I don’t owe you my future because you ruined yours [voice hardens] And I will not let obligation wear love’s face [Breakdown — deep feminine growls] IF YOU MADE IT YOU CARRY IT IF YOU BROKE IT YOU NAME IT IF YOU HURT THEM YOU ANSWER FOR IT [half-time impact] YOUR ACTION YOUR WEIGHT YOUR SIDE OF THE LINE [BOTH CLEAN + HARSH LAYER] I WILL NOT CONFUSE CAPACITY WITH CONSENT [brief silence] [low clean] Ask me. Don’t assign me. [Final Chorus — huge but controlled] Not mine Doesn’t mean I don’t care Not mine Doesn’t mean I won’t be there It means if I stay I stay because I chose the weight Not because blood or grief or love put chains around my name I know what I can carry I know what I can survive And if I take your burden it will be because I decided for myself [Final Breakdown — restrained fury] NOT YOUR MARTYR NOT YOUR MOTHER NOT YOUR ANSWER NOT YOUR ALTAR I AM NOT WHAT YOU NEED JUST BECAUSE I CAN BE [full stop] [Outro — earth drone returning] [soft female clean] My mother said feel the ground Know what holds you Know what you hold Know the difference between a root and a chain. [pause] So I do. [whisper] And I know what isn’t mine. [complete silence]
