You used to trace circles on my wrist While half asleep beside the window Said if the world ever turned against me You’d still stay until the lights burned out Now your coffee cup collects dust untouched Like evidence from a dead civilization And I still instinctively leave space for you On the left side of the bed I replay our last conversation nightly Trying to hear where your love disappeared How do I survive Knowing somebody else gets your laughter now? Knowing your hands found a new body While mine still shake reaching for ghosts? You ripped the future out of my chest And left me choking on the silence Now every night feels endless And every sunrise feels like punishment Your sweater still hangs behind the door Carrying the scent I can’t wash out I tried to throw it into the closet But panic clawed its way up my throat Everyone says I’ll heal eventually Like grief obeys the rules of time But your name still detonates inside me Every fucking time it crosses my mind I think part of me died The moment you stopped choosing me I GAVE YOU YEARS I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING MY YOUTH MY TRUST MY GODDAMN HEART AND YOU WALKED AWAY LIKE IT WAS NOTHING LIKE I WAS NOTHING Now I sleep beside your absence Like it’s the only thing I have left I keep begging memories to kill me slower Because letting go feels worse than death And if love can vanish this easily Then maybe nothing was ever real Maybe we’re just lonely people Destroying each other to feel less alone I stayed long after your love died Begging silence to become you again Now every room sounds like your absence And every morning feels fucking wrong I keep hearing your footsteps In places you'll never return to
