Neon Bruises

Verse 1 I grew up in a house where the walls had ears Now I talk to myself just to make it clear Got a mind like a maze with a broken map And I still found a way just to double back They said “act your age” — I misplaced the file Now I age like milk with a better style Got a past so loud it hums in code Like a dial-up scream in a silent mode I don’t cry, I archive pain Categorize it, rearrange Put a label on it: “Do Not Touch” Then weaponize it when it’s too much ⸻ Pre-Chorus You think I’m joking — I’m half rehearsed Other half just improv hurt If honesty had a sound, it’d glitch Every time I try to switch ⸻ Chorus I got neon bruises, glow in the dark You don’t see ‘em till I fall apart Laugh it off like it’s all a joke While I choke on words I never spoke I got thoughts that sprint, don’t walk in line Trip on truth then double-time If you think you know me — you don’t, that’s fine I rewrite myself in real time ⸻ Verse 2 Brain runs laps while I stand still Overanalyze just for the thrill Read between lines that don’t exist Then get mad at the plot I missed Family tree got roots in static Every branch a little erratic We don’t talk, we just rotate blame Like a carousel of different names Say I’m “too much” — yeah, that tracks I come with footnotes, side effects Sarcasm stitched in every thread Say it sweet but I mean what I said ⸻ Pre-Chorus You hear noise, I hear design Every flaw is a coded sign You call chaos, I call art Different names for the same damn spark ⸻ Chorus I got neon bruises, glow in the dark You don’t see ‘em till I fall apart Laugh it off like it’s all a joke While I choke on words I never spoke I got thoughts that sprint, don’t walk in line Trip on truth then double-time If you think you know me — you don’t, that’s fine I rewrite myself in real time ⸻ Bridge Tick-tick brain, don’t stop, don’t stall Climb the ceiling, watch it fall Mirror talks but it don’t translate Half my thoughts show up too late Jokes hit sharp but land off-key Like a punchline chasing me I’m the glitch in the “I’m okay” That keeps breaking the display ⸻ Breakdown I don’t need to scream to break I just bend till something shakes ⸻ Chorus Neon bruises, can’t conceal Funny how the fake feels real You see calm, I see cracks I just learned how to hide them back Thoughts still racing, never pause Living life without a cause Or maybe too many — hard to tell I make chaos look like it’s going well ⸻ Outro If I’m too much — Then maybe you just… don’t read enough