late-night radio nostalgia for punx who still believe in something (cover)

i wake up slow, the sunlight hurts my eyes got a half-drunk glass, and a half-lived life i trace my thoughts like cracks in the ceiling every one leads back to the feeling doctor said “you’re fine,” i said “i’m not” these quiet wars can’t be forgot my hands shake as i twist the cap small white truth in a paper wrap radio’s hummin’ my favorite song i’m still here but it’s been so long so i take my pills and breathe it in try to make peace with the state i’m in i don’t wanna float, i just wanna start feelin’ something real in this restless heart so i take my pills, and hold my ground in a world that spins, i’m slowin’ down yeah, it’s not the same, but it’s a start half a pill and a heavy heart these neon nights, they cut too deep i chase sleep but it never keeps every thought’s a looping reel of things i swore i’d never feel call me weak, i’ll call it trying to find a way to keep from dying i used to drink to stop the shake now i breathe and try to stay awake i hum along to a broken tune somewhere between midnight and noon so i take my pills and breathe it in try to make peace with the state i’m in i don’t wanna float, i just wanna start feelin’ something real in this restless heart so i take my pills, and hold my ground in a world that spins, i’m slowin’ down yeah, it’s not the same, but it’s a start half a pill and a heavy heart there’s a beauty in the balance, a tremor in the calm there’s mercy in the morning when i’m not so far gone and maybe healing’s ugly, maybe peace ain’t pure but i’ll take this shaky middle if i can’t be sure so i take my pills and face the day the fear don’t vanish, but it fades away i don’t wanna hide, i just need a spark to light up this anxious heart so i take my pills, and hold my ground yeah, i’m still here, i’m stickin’ around it’s not the cure, but it’s my start— half a pill and a heavy heart half a pill and a heavy heart… but it beats, it beats, it beats… 💊