I’m still smiling Schrodinger's Lament #SUNOVERSE

[Intro (quiet, honest)] I’m still smiling. That’s how I stay safe. That’s how I keep him from seeing me afraid. [Verse 1] I used to arrive when choices mattered, When someone had to decide. I never pushed them in a direction, I only stood nearby. I told myself I was just observing, That none of it was mine— That I could watch what happened And still be fine. [Pre-Chorus] He doesn’t shout. He doesn’t threaten. He creates fear and waits. [Chorus (clear, restrained)] I’m still smiling, still composed, Still careful with what I show. I won’t let him see me panic, I won’t let fear take hold. If I show how scared I am, I give him more control— So I stay calm even when I’m terrified. [Verse 2] I was wrong about being untouchable. I was wrong about being free. Fear can be built into the world Until it reaches me. He didn’t trap my body, He trapped the situation— He made fear the condition For my manifestation. Now I appear because lives are at risk, Because something can be lost. Every time I arrive, Someone else is paying the cost. [Bridge (very direct, confessional)] I understand what he’s doing. That’s the part that hurts the most. If I didn’t understand, I could pretend this wasn’t real. [Chorus (slightly firmer, still controlled)] I’m still smiling, still polite, Still careful, still precise. I won’t beg. I won’t break. I won’t give him that advantage. Fear may decide when I appear— But it doesn’t get to decide who I am. [Outro (quiet, steady, unresolved)] I used to come because choice existed. Now I come because fear is present. He thinks that means he owns me. He thinks I’ve given in. I haven’t. I’m just learning how to survive this without losing myself.