I don’t feel like the mother of the year. I had to put my grown man child out the house because he is on the wrong side of the tracks and his extra activities wont allow him to stay in my home . One day came home from work and there was a letter my management office that said he is not welcomed last night was hard as I had to sit and watch him pack his clothes knowing he had nowhere to go my heart hurts as I listen to him cuss and scream that he is all alone and no one cares. I had to step aside because I’m not God son I love you but I can’t save you Im not God. I have been in his corner for 4 years, allowed him to stay when I wasn’t supposed to. now the landlord has said if he doesn’t leave they will ask me to go . I had no other choice but to ask him to leave. Son I love you I will always love you but im not God it hurts to watch him gather up his clothes and as he packed, I reflected on all the times where when he was a lil boy when he would get hurt I would patch up his wounds but this time I couldn’t patch it all up and make it better because I’m not God oh no I’m not God Lord help me to be strong as I let him Go got him a hotel for a week but after that he is own his own this time I can’t bail him out. As I left him in that hotel room my heart filled up with pain because as bad as I wanted to save him and heal is wounds I was reminded that I’m not God I want to save you son but that’s not my job I want to heal you and make it all better but I’m not God I have to step out the way so he can grow up .I have to move out the way because I’m not God. Lord as I give him back to you please protect him provide heal what’s broken save him Because you are all mighty God I trust you and I believe it is so thank you God for help me cut the cord I know he is in good hands thank you Jesus for making me see I was in your way I will step aside because I’m not God Mother Dear As I sit looking out the window I remembered the times when you would be cooking in the kitchen as you spill over some knowledge and wisdom on me , how I would give up Anything and everything to get those moments back . Mom i found love and he is so wonderful and treats me so good mom i miss seeing that beautiful smile and all the funny stories of the past i just wanted to take this time to tell you thank you you are truly amazing woman . Thank you for raising me and all you did to protect me . You didn’t play about me . I remember your hugs and and your good tasting your favorite dishes you’re passing was so sudden and I thought we would have more time but God had other plans I miss you mother dear I love you Queen rest easy my love
