[Verse 1] How do I smile When I’m not right inside Pulling on this painted grin Like some sad clown at closing time The daily grind It eats my name Leaves just numbers on a screen I scroll for sparks For tiny thrills But they fade before they reach me [Pre-Chorus] Quiet Clean Invisible I trace the cracks beneath my eyes And say "we’re fine" [Chorus] This is the mask I wear Just a disguise to hide my stare From all the lies I keep inside Mentally I tear I tear I say I’ll never heal I say I’ll never change The mask I wear can’t cover fear The deeper that I sink into the mirror No smile comes Just me and my despair (oh-oh) mentally I tear [Verse 2] Makeup on the aching skin Covering the nights I lost Little pills A liquid courage Buying time at someone’s cost I joke too loud I move too fast A blurry blur in every room But when the door is locked I sag back into the truth [Pre-Chorus] Mentally I tear Soft and slow But every day I press my thumbs into my eyes Just to prove it never went away [Chorus] This is the mask I wear Just a disguise to hide my stare From all the lies I keep inside Mentally I tear I tear I say I’ll never heal I say I’ll never change The mask I wear can’t cover fear The deeper that I lean into the mirror No smile comes Just me and my despair (yeah) mentally I tear [Bridge] What if this hurt Is all by design sculptured statues of fake men I’m just next in line What if the face Behind the paint Claws at me again Mentally I tear (oh) mentally I tear [Chorus] Still this is the mask I wear But I’m so tired of this blank stare Of all the lies I keep inside While mentally I tear I tear I swear I’ll never heal I swear I’ll never change Yet something in me Is shredded…….and I ( I ) Keep whispering right into the mirror Mentally I tear Mentally I tear ( I tear )
