[Intro- Sad melancholic strati castor finger picking Eb] [Verse 1 – Age 16] I learned my name from a daydream scream sneaking drinks from my glass, blood running thin mother said, you’ll grow out of that stare I grew into it, cut my hair with scissors the hallway smelled like burned dinner I wanted out of there I was loud in a house full of curfews counting friends I was sure I’d lose every shirt fit like it belonged to someone else first panic attack behind the bleachers life taught me things no teacher ever could I hated being the kid I turned out to be [Pre-Chorus] I said I’m changing but I meant I’m vanishing [Chorus] Who you were still lives in the walls punching holes when this house starts falling I hear that voice every time I crawl two souls in the same body sixteen is still looking for me forty is tired and sorry tell me which one is real at all I'm changing! [Interlude - Resonate With Him I] Stand where he stood, don’t look away breathe like the boy you buried let his noise run through your veins you don’t need to save him just remember his name [Verse 2 – Late 20s - early 30s] Cheap apartments, cheaper pay fell for a girl named Karly she tasted like honey and hard candy I lied like I was steady kept a blade for heavy nights bit my tongue to the seam I was sure I’d be dead by thirty made it there bored and dirty anger paid most of my rent every party felt like hell with a band music louder than the thoughts I brought I still didn’t know how to live [Pre-Chorus] I kept changing and called it control [Chorus] Who you were still lives in the walls punching holes when this house starts falling I hear that voice every time I crawl two souls in the same body my twenties are still fighting for me forty is tired and sorry tell me which one is real at all I'm changing! [Interlude - Resonate With Him II] Write back to the kid you were no speeches, no advice just: I feel you. I was scared too. let him sit at your side like a brother you survived. [Verse 3 – age 40] Now my knees sound like restless water photos of ghosts in desk drawers I became the man I wouldn’t trust I drive past the school like a scar all the teachers gone, the field still raw the town moved out with us I’m calmer but the calm has teeth depression comes polite and brief shakes my hand, steals the day I’ve got a daughter almost that age watching her step toward the same stage I don’t know what to say [Bridge] I didn’t grow up I just learned to lower the volume I didn’t heal I just stopped bleeding in public [Breakdown – screamed] LOOK AT THE YEARS ON THE FLOOR THEY DON’T FIT ME ANYMORE I WEAR HIS FACE LIKE BEFORE BUT I DON’T DREAM LIKE BEFORE I DON’T SCREAM LIKE BEFORE I DON’T BELIEVE LIKE BEFORE I DON’T DREAM LIKE BEFORE I DON’T BELIEVE LIKE BEFORE FUCK YEAH!!!! I'm Changing! I'm Changing! I'm Changing! I'm Fucking Changing! [Breakdown – spoken - screamed] look at the years on the floor They don't fit me anymore I wear his face like before But I don't dream like before I DON’T SCREAM LIKE BEFORE I DON’T BELIEVE LIKE BEFORE I DON’T SCREAM LIKE BEFORE I DON’T BELIEVE LIKE BEFORE FUCK YEAHHHH!!!!! I'm changing! [Interlude - Resonate With Him III] Let the forty-year chest meet the teenage storm touch the version you were without shame or form say his name like it’s not a thorn say my name like I’m being born. [Final Chorus] Who you were still lives in the walls punching holes when this house starts falling I hear that voice every time I crawl two souls in the same body sixteen is still part of me forty is guarding the lobby I am the difference between them all [Outro] I’m Changing I'm Changing! I'm Changing! I'm Changing! I'm Fucking Changing!
