Fading

I’m leaking right from my dreams Unraveling at the seams Why won’t someone just- Help me die I tried so hard to be seen But obsession cut me clean If you ever ask me why I lied, expect me to shut up and cry Uh uh uh Oh, I- Overthink, I think and think and think This depression’s wearing me thin Mental suppression Won’t work anymore Don’t just say it how you like, you know, when I put on a show Uh uh uh I tried to be what you think Someone that doesn’t sink But it pushed me to the brink My calamity of a head I just want to go to bed But then I won’t be ahead Just to see ya, to hear ya, to feel ya My time is running down Please just turn my frown Upside down Oh, I- Can’t take this life anymore I’m just always so fucking sore I can’t even get up To even go to the store And despite it all I just want more Uh uh uh Of this pain, this sticky, icky pain It’s the only thing I’ve known It reminds me that I’m here Why I steer myself to hurt It’s just a concert I blurt out words to purge I’m bleeding just to surge Something’s wrong with me, I swear I don’t wanna wear my skin It feels rotten and so icky, so icky I’m just a Itty bitty mess Who acts normal just to impress I say it just like you know, I always put on a show Uh uh uh Because I’m fading Just fading Waning It’s just so draining This monster under my skin A beast that always grins This voice inside my head I’m a calamity so full of dread I can’t love, I just get scared Because I’ve hurt everyone I hold so dear Sunk my claws in Just to disappear But with the changing of the seasons It’s giving me a reason A reason for deletion My justification for leaving Oh- And with the changing of the seasons I thought I’d be believing I never wanted to die I just wanted to Try But now all I do is cry, Toss and turn and never try You love me when I’m honest Yeah, you think you just know best A reason? No, I don’t need a reason My paper heart is bleeding A bitterness repeating And you will find a way to live like this A cut-out plastic likeness So suffer here in silence, in silence Just to see ya, to hear ya, to feel ya My time is running out Please just turn my frown Upside down Oh, I- I’m fading, Just fading, Waning It’s just so draining No, I don’t need a reason My paper heart is bleeding All I want is to, is to Cry Sit all alone and just Cry I don't want to Cry But everything just makes me Cry Oh god why won't someone just Tear me apart and devour whats left