[SA-SO] I know the mood of the room By the sound of the footsteps The way the door shuts (mmm) [SA-SO] I flinch at the anger, shrink at the silence Never the same as you dig under my skin I told them I'm solid, I told them I'm stone But the weight of the fine feels like breaking alone I'm keeping the peace while I swallow the nerve Playing a role I feel I deserve The instinct says run but the guilt tells me no I'm drowning the sirens to stay in control .....And I just keep fading [Both] I'm losing the version of me that they knew The one who stayed quiet and played by the rules No miracle coming, no one to call It's just my own gravity catching the fall I'm the rescue, the ruin, the end of the line I'm losing myself just to stay alive (da-da-da-da-da) Just to stay alive [Sydney] The room is the same but the quiet is cold I'm noticing cracks in the lies I was told I stare at the mirror, the damage is clear I'm saving a stranger I haven't seen in years [SA-SO] The numbness is fading, the panic is slow With nowhere to hide and with nowhere to go [Sydney-SA-SO] I'm done being a shadow to survive the goddamn dark I won't swallow my voice just to avoid a mark I'm breaking the silence, I'm baring my teeth I'm taking up space and I'm learning to breathe [Both] I'm losing the version of me that they knew The one who stayed quiet and played by the rules No miracle coming, no one to call It's just my own gravity catching the fall I'm the rescue, the ruin, the end of the line [Sydney] I'm finding myself And it's about fucking time (hmmhmmhmm) (ay-ay-ay) [SA-SO] And it's about fucking time
