Hopeless (except for the drugs)

Alternative indie college rock experimental emo post industrial

As my hope fades
I thought they said
That the memories would fade
That the pain would heal
But it’s the only thing left
Besides these bottles and pills
Got No reasons to stay
Life as empty
As the promises made
I’m ready to escape
Hell can’t be worse than this
With no one to hold
Everything I ever loved
Never loved me back
Except the drugs 
I don’t want to wake up
Time is up
The clock ticks down
Nothing left but my misery 
The only company I can keep
And I hope you enjoy this letter
It’s for all the people I’d die for 
Who never gave a single fuck about me
I finally lost the battle 
you all can have the war
It’s over I quit
I keep spiraling
I found my surrender
Just a splinter
A fragmented life
That can never
be pieced back together
Because my life is a storm
And I’m tired of the weather
Tired of the weights on my shoulders
37s years were enough I 
don’t want to get older
I know it will never be better
Why would I fight 
When iI know I’m dying alone
Won’t find any peace 
because hell is my home
With the girl i love lying in my bed
But i’m all alone
Death please come and
Give me one last kiss
One last caress
Finish this curse
Finally make me blessed 
Cut my ties to this mortal shell
This contract is over
Send me back to hell
I don’t know what my soul
Was thinking
So many problems
No way to solve them
Not even drinking 
No way to numb them
Please stop my breathing
Because I’ve got no reasons
Left to stay for 
No one left to kill for
No one to rescue me
I’m ready to sell my soul
If death would take my breath
She was my only hope 
Now I’ve got nothing left 
My heart is as shattered 
As a reality
Where my life ever mattered
To anyone 
But I’m never enough
Time revealed the truth
But I’ve known all along
When you hit your bottom
All your friends are gone
And loyalty is dead
And all love is fake
This is my hell
That I have created
And I will escape
My path may have been chosen
But I’m not going to take it
My resignation in
I want my refund
And fuck them all 
Time to let the world burn
Everyone I tried to save
I hope they burn 
And cry our for help
It’s finally their turn
And I won’t be there
Because I tried to learn
From every mistake
Guess I never could
And they never tried 
They’re not the only ones
Who wished I died
It’s time for death
To finally take me
Because of this world
I’m finally breaking
And I was born
A rolling stone
Fuck this life time to move on
I’ve paid my debts 100 fold
It’s time for the next one
Because this life is old 
And I’m tired of holding all onto
All my cards 
That I keep close to the chest 
As I take my last breath 
I finally reveal them all
But they never learned
The game
I finally fold my hand and 
They all go down in flames

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As my hope fades I thought they said That the memories would fade That the pain would heal But it’s the only thing left Besides these bottles and pills Got No reasons to stay Life as empty As the promises made I’m ready to escape Hell can’t be worse than this With no one to hold Everything I ever loved Never loved me back Except the drugs I don’t want to wake up Time is up The clock ticks down Nothing left but my misery The only company I can keep And I hope you enjoy this letter It’s for all the people I’d die for Who never gave a single fuck about me I finally lost the battle you all can have the war It’s over I quit I keep spiraling I found my surrender Just a splinter A fragmented life That can never be pieced back together Because my life is a storm And I’m tired of the weather Tired of the weights on my shoulders 37s years were enough I don’t want to get older I know it will never be better Why would I fight When iI know I’m dying alone Won’t find any peace because hell is my home With the girl i love lying in my bed But i’m all alone Death please come and Give me one last kiss One last caress Finish this curse Finally make me blessed Cut my ties to this mortal shell This contract is over Send me back to hell I don’t know what my soul Was thinking So many problems No way to solve them Not even drinking No way to numb them Please stop my breathing Because I’ve got no reasons Left to stay for No one left to kill for No one to rescue me I’m ready to sell my soul If death would take my breath She was my only hope Now I’ve got nothing left My heart is as shattered As a reality Where my life ever mattered To anyone But I’m never enough Time revealed the truth But I’ve known all along When you hit your bottom All your friends are gone And loyalty is dead And all love is fake This is my hell That I have created And I will escape My path may have been chosen But I’m not going to take it My resignation in I want my refund And fuck them all Time to let the world burn Everyone I tried to save I hope they burn And cry our for help It’s finally their turn And I won’t be there Because I tried to learn From every mistake Guess I never could And they never tried They’re not the only ones Who wished I died It’s time for death To finally take me Because of this world I’m finally breaking And I was born A rolling stone Fuck this life time to move on I’ve paid my debts 100 fold It’s time for the next one Because this life is old And I’m tired of holding all onto All my cards That I keep close to the chest As I take my last breath I finally reveal them all But they never learned The game I finally fold my hand and They all go down in flames

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