No Paper, No Peace

(O)(O)(O)(O)(O)🧻🫣(O)(O)(O)(O)(O) Locked door, cold seat, bad decisions made Too late now, can’t rewind the parade I scroll my phone like it owes me a plan Then I look to the side—oh no… empty stand This was not how I pictured my day Confidence flushed, dignity astray I whisper “okay” like that fixes the scene But the roll is a ghost, it’s vanished, unseen (O)(O)(O)(O)(O)🧻🫣(O)(O)(O)(O)(O) Brain starts sprinting, heart does a flip Who designed this fate? Who let this slip? I laugh too loud ‘cause crying’s worse This throne just turned into a curse (O)(O)(O)(O)(O)🧻🫣(O)(O)(O)(O)(O) No paper, no peace, just me and my thoughts Negotiating with fear and bad life choices I’ve bought Do I sacrifice socks? Do I scream for help? Do I waddle with hope and believe in myself? No paper, no pride, just vibes and despair Staring at the wall like answers live there (O)(O)(O)(O)(O)🧻🫣(O)(O)(O)(O)(O) There’s tissues in the other room, mocking me A shower nearby whispering “set yourself free” I check the trash can like it might save my soul Just a receipt and regret at the bottom of the bowl I consider the sink, I consider the cat I consider how I ended up like this, imagine that I rehearse a speech in case someone knocks “Hi yes hello, please ignore the socks” (O)(O)(O)(O)(O)🧻🫣(O)(O)(O)(O)(O) Breathe… There’s always… options… There are always… options… (O)(O)(O)(O)(O)🧻🫣(O)(O)(O)(O)(O) No paper, no peace, I accept my doom I mentally move into this bathroom room I plan my life here, rent is free This is me now. This is who I’ll be. (O)(O)(O)(O)(O)🧻🫣(O)(O)(O)(O)(O) I sit there dramatic, ready to cry Then I glance up… and freeze I turn my head. Slow. Careful. There’s a pack of wipes. On the shelf. Right there, the whole time. I don’t celebrate. I don’t smile. "Sigh!" I just sit in silence… Disappointed in myself… How I missed it for five whole minutes. (O)(O)(O)(O)(O)🧻🫣(O)(O)(O)(O)(O)