Eye of the Hurricane

I live in the center of my own storm Watching the whole sky strain Chaos and current circle me I am the hush and the rain Not a tornado, not a wave Not a quick and passing thing I am slow pressure building up Till even silence starts to ring No safe horizon, no clear shore No switch to stop the spinning ache Just stars above the open eye And walls of weather I can’t break Walls of weather all around Stars above me in the day I can’t command the spinning dark I only learn its shape I am the eye of the hurricane Calm in the core while the whole world breaks Peace in my chest, debris in my wake Trying to breathe while the air still shakes I am the eye of the hurricane If you want to reach me, come honest, come true Step through the wall, stand under the blue And I will show you the quiet I fight to keep for you I didn’t ask to be born like this I gather chaos like some gather strays Every hurt adds to the orbit Every need bends through my days How did I become “that bitch” Just because I wouldn’t break? They made a villain of my strength And left their weather in my wake You see my calm and call it zen You move in close, you want in too But you bring your own winds in with you And the storm grows trying to hold you It’s lonely here inside the eye Where even peace feels hard to trust I wear the stillness like a crown While everything around me cuts I am the eye of the hurricane Calm in the core while the whole world breaks Peace in my chest, debris in my wake Trying to breathe while the air still shakes I am the eye of the hurricane If you want to reach me, come honest, come true Step through the wall, stand under the blue And I will show you the quiet I fight to keep for you I may be weathered, but I’m not weak I’ve been battered, but I remain strong I am the place the storm runs through And still the place where peace holds on If you can stand my spinning edge If you can face the flying glass You’ll find me here, not gone, not small Still holding while the worst winds pass I am the eye of the hurricane Not just the calm, but the cost it takes Stars overhead, walls made of gale Still standing here when lesser things fail I am the eye of the hurricane I don’t go under, I learn the rain Step through the wall, stand under the blue And I will show you the heart that’s survived it through Clear sky Hard-won Come closer If you dare Dodge the debris Survive the storm Meet me in the middle Find me in the eye