How Could I Do That to you

How could I do that to you... [Part I] I still remember how you looked at me, before the silence filled the room. Before the things I kept from you became a shadow in our home. I told myself I was protecting us, that I could carry it alone. I thought the truth would only hurt you, so I buried what I'd known. I kept believing there was time, another day to make things right. But every secret leaves a wound long before it sees the light. [part II] There are still voices in the hallway, little footsteps through the day. Two little lights still call me father, and I will never turn away. Whatever happens between us, whatever distance has to grow, I will be there when they need me. That is the one thing I know. I thought hiding the truth would protect what we had. I only understand now what it cost. [part III] I wish I could return the moment before the damage had a name. Before the fear became a distance. Before our home no longer felt the same. But time does not surrender backwards, and regret cannot undo. There is nothing left to hide behind. I finally understand what I did to you. I know what I broke. I know what it cost. I know there are things I may never undo. How could I do that to you? How could I become the wound you bear? How could I hold you in my arms and leave something broken there? I won't ask you to forget. I won't ask you to come back. I won't dress the truth in pretty words or hide behind the things I lacked. I don't ask you to forget. I don't ask you to come back. I only hope that someday you'll know I finally understand. [outro] How could I do that to you...