My amazing son, from mummy, I write, With tender words, though it’s hard to get right. You are my inspiration, my shining star, In every moment, no matter how far. I’m sorry I faltered, not the mum you should know, I carry that weight, a relentless shadow. The dreams that I built, they crumbled away, And still, in my heart, love intends to stay. When I made that choice to take you away, To Nanny’s and gramps by where the warm sun could play, It was pure love that led me through despair, To shield you from wounds that I could not bear. I feared you’d inherit the hurts I had felt, The scars and the sorrows, the heartache I dealt. Drowning in darkness, my mind in a fog, With demons that whispered, they latched like a hog. The abuse I endured was a mountain too steep, It haunted my nights, and stole away sleep. In seeking relief, I lost track of the way, And in that losing, I shadowed your play. Forgive me, my child, for the tears I caused, For not being the mother my heart had first paused. Regret etches deep, a relentless refrain, Yet love is the thread that can bind up the pain. You deserve a bright future, a life free of chains, Not the echoes of heartache, nor the whispers of pains. So I made the decision, though it tore me apart, To give you a chance with my ever aching heart. Though flawed and broken, my love's never gone, It’s woven through everything, my courage, my song. I’ll strive to be better, to rise from this fall, For you, my dear son, you’re my reason, my all. So here is my promise, a life yet to chart, Forgive my missteps; I’ll give you my heart. With hopes that tomorrow brings light in its glow, Remember, my darling, my love will always flow.
