[Verse 1] You said, “it’s not a big deal” But it hit like a door slam My chest went tight And the room got too small All those bodies pressed in Like a wave on my skin I wasn’t choosing to fall I was fighting for air [Pre-Chorus] My nerves went full alarm My legs just gave out Staff came running over Had to carry me out I was scared, I was gone I was out of my mind You called it dramatic I called it survival time [Chorus] It’s not a big deal That broke me in two It’s not a big deal If it never hit you I needed support Not pressure to push through It’s not a big deal But it was to me, to me (to me) [Verse 2] Now I’m back home shaking From the crash after fear Trying to breathe through the noise Trying to make it clear You played those mixed signals Then looked through me cold Told my pain was a joke While my body let go You say you have anxiety too But you use it like a door Then you judge me for drowning When I can’t take much more [Pre-Chorus] I know what I felt I know what was true When I hit the floor I needed someone who knew Not a name for my pain Not a guilt trip in disguise Just a hand, just a voice That would look me in the eyes [Chorus] It’s not a big deal That broke me in two It’s not a big deal If it never hit you I needed support Not pressure to push through It’s not a big deal But it was to me, to me (to me) [Bridge] I’m cutting off the signal I’m letting myself rest You can keep your opinion I’m keeping what’s left My system needs mercy Not your hard little smile I’m done letting you rename A crisis as “fine” [Final Chorus] It’s not a big deal That broke me in two It’s not a big deal If it never hit you I needed support Not pressure to push through It’s not a big deal But it was to me, to me (to me) It’s not a big deal You can say what you want It’s not a big deal But my heart said “stop” (stop)
