Breaking The Surface

Verse 1 The ceiling’s breathing like a lowered sky Salt in the air from another night My bed’s an anchor, my ribs are rust I’ve been learning the language of dust Every clock ticks like a distant buoy Calling me out, then pulling me back I trace the cracks like coastlines Of a world I’ve never touched Pre-Chorus I’ve been holding my breath for years Counting the blue in the dark If I move, the water might notice If I stay, I’ll disappear Chorus I was drowning in a quiet room In a sea that never made a sound Walls like waves around my waist Dragging me down, dragging me down But tonight I broke the surface line Let the cold hit my skin I don’t know if I can swim yet But I’m finally in Verse 2 The door creaks open like a hull Splitting the pressure I survived Every step feels borrowed Like I stole it from another life My shadow wobbles on the floor Like light through moving tides I’m shaking, but I’m standing And that feels like a kind of flight Pre-Chorus I named my fear “home” for so long I forgot it wasn’t kind I thought the dark was keeping me But it was just keeping time Chorus I was drowning in a quiet room In a sea that never made a sound Sheets like kelp around my legs Dragging me down, dragging me down But tonight I broke the surface line Heard my heartbeat begin I don’t know where the shore is But I’m finally in Bridge If I sink again, let it be honest Not the slow, familiar deep If I cry, let it be saltwater From waves I chose to meet I’m done being a shipwreck No one ever finds I want storms, I want horizons I want the risk of tides Break The window’s open The air tastes real I touch the floor Just to feel I was drowning in a quiet room Calling it a safer sea But the calm was just another name For losing me, losing me Now I’m soaked in the open night Every fear rushing in I might not make it to the morning But I finally swam out of it Outro If I go under, I’ll know why If I float, I’ll learn how I spent my life beneath the surface I’m above it now...