Sunday, 24th of May Twenty-two degrees, mostly sunny It mocks me Contrasting the storms within my soul The sunlight outside mocks my pain And teases my tears Whatever happens without you here today Doesn't mean I'm an emotional mess I wasted a day today Something more constructive isn't on my to-do list Not because I use your presence as an excuse I must have had the longest tea time in my history It's taken hours, endlessly sipping Lukewarm cups of Earl Grey Holding back the temptation Of making those overly, excessively wordy texts All those overshares about the wildlife occupying our home An excuse to send you heart emojis And random photographs Sunday, 24th of May Twenty-two degrees, mostly sunny It mocks me It doesn't mean I'm not coping No really, honestly I probably won't sit around and scroll on my phone Like I never do that at all 4:35 I'm still wearing my pyjamas But when you're not home my best intentions need a little bit of help Not that I can't motivate myself I'm just useless sometimes I brace myself for the next few days And give myself a break If only, just only, for just today Wake up early Monday morning, bright and sunny Mostly sunny as they say Get it together woman, I tell myself every day And hopefully by Friday night I might breathe freely and exhale once again.
