Now I know

🧡 𝐙𝐀𝐑𝐐'𝐬 𝐋𝐨𝐠 There’s someone who comes to mind more the harder I try to forget. That person broke me, but also taught me what love truly is. And now I finally understand why they, and that love, were always meant to become my lyrics and my song. ──────── 예전엔 사랑이 불꽃놀이 같다고 생각했어 눈부시고, 요란하고, 금방 사그러드는 것 그런데 너는, 천천히 타오르는 불이었어 은은하게 나의 지난 날들을 밝혀준 사람 난 그런 네게 모든 걸 내어주며 사랑했고, 기꺼이 나를 잃어갔어. 그땐 몰랐지만, 아무도 너처럼 날 무너뜨릴 수 없었어 너 없이 더 잘 살 거라고 이 악물듯이 널 잊으려 노력했는데 Now I know, 왜 난 널 노래하고 있는지 가끔 나는 나를 시험하듯 왜 널 떠올리는지 그리움 속에 너를 묻었지만 왜 너는 여전히 흉터처럼, 사라지지 않고 내게 남아있는지 Now I know, now I know 너는 내 첫사랑이자, 유일한 사랑이었어 Now I know, 왜 이 상처가 이토록 경건하게 느껴지는지 넌 나에게 이기는 법이 아닌, 주는 법을 가르쳐줬어 버텨내는 방법과 그리고 어쩌면 죄 짓는 방법도 간절한 눈으로 바라보면서도, 서로의 자존심을 내세우며 말하지 못하던 우리의 사랑은 매일 폭풍과 햇살이 부딪히는 계절 같았지 하지만 난 절반만 사랑한 적이 없어 넌 내 전부를 가져갔던 거야 그땐 몰랐지만, 난 충분히 단단해졌다고 생각했어 널 떠올리며 더 이상 웃지도, 눈물을 흘리지도 않게 되었는데 Now I know, 왜 난 널 노래하고 있는지 가끔 나는 나를 시험하듯 왜 널 떠올리는지 그리움 속에 너를 묻었지만 왜 너는 여전히 흉터처럼, 사라지지 않고 내게 남아있는지 Now I know, now I know 너는 내 첫사랑이자, 유일한 사랑이었어 Now I know, 왜 이 상처가 이토록 경건하게 느껴지는지 너를 만나기 전에도 사랑을 겪었지만, 진짜 사랑을 깨닫게 해준 건 너였으니까 지금은 끝났지만, 기대도 하지 않지만, Now I know 너 같은 사람은 없을 거라고 영원히 너라고 ──────── 💞 𝐄𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐓𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 I used to think love was like fireworks Dazzling, loud, and quickly fading But you were a slow, steady fire The one who gently lit up my days gone by I loved you by giving you all of me And I let myself fall away, willingly I didn’t know it then, No one else could ever break me like you did I told myself I'd live better without you I clenched my teeth and tried so hard to forget you Now I know why I'm still singing about you Why I sometimes test myself by bringing you back to mind Though I buried you in longing, you still remain Like a scar that won’t fade, still left inside me Now I know, now I know You were my first, and my only true love Now I know why this wound I bear Feels so sacred every time I feel it You taught me not how to win, but how to give myself away How to endure and keep going And maybe even how to sin Even when we looked at each other with longing Our pride kept us from saying what we meant Our love was storm and sunshine every day Like a season where they collided constantly But I never loved you halfway You took all of me, entirely I didn’t know it then, I thought I'd grown strong enough to move on I could think of you without laughing And not cry anymore either Now I know why I'm still singing about you Why I sometimes test myself by bringing you back to mind Though I buried you in longing, you still remain Like a scar that won’t fade, still left inside me Now I know, now I know You were my first, and my only true love Now I know why this wound I bear Feels so sacred every time I feel it I’d loved before I met you But you're the one who showed me what it truly is It's over now, I know that And I don’t expect anything anymore Now I know There’ll never be someone like you It’s always been you, forever you ──────── 𝐙𝐀𝐑𝐐 | suno.com/@zarq Lyrics, Music and Arrangement: © 2025 ZARQ. © 2025 ZARQ. All rights reserved.