I started thinkin i maybe diffrent when I herd em readin scriptures stairin at myself as my self was lookin back like I was lookin at a fuckin picture Realizin maybe i may be just a fixture for somone else to measure against ya i got some accomplishments go figure bruised with misery from my history tragically ya see this Trajectory it may or may not have made me... me i keep catchin myself tellin me just breathe you got this even tho I no that i probably dont but thats for me to judge... never really know which way im runnin feet movin fast i just shrug it off walkin through the landscape of the land of the lost maybe i am damned (ya) its kinda hard to see honestly feels like im movin at 100 miles an hour adrenaline dumping heart thumpin brain screamin at all times... hard grind thats what they call it I think but shit.. see real shit happens fast what if I fall on my ass gaspin layin on my back or if I was dreamin an i wake up from it all fuck i could even get a phone call that someone I loves passed on... then what go ahead measure up wouldnt be that hard too step over me then what.. what if im curled up on the floor thinkin about everything I missed man I cant miss im to far in passin the beginnin again lappin I no I no... see the tops cold not as cool as you think see at the very tip you can fall eitherway theres no where to lean especially if u have others dependin on the gravity an exactly the way u place both ya feet I keep tellin me i no you think about the free fall just forgetting it all thinkin maybe it make it easy an i dont mean me jumpin more like me throwin my hands up an givin it all up an say fuck it an walk back down to the ground where it's safe feels like there's safety in that that really might be fact. but what about the ones that rely on me will they succeed without me? kinda why im still holdin it down holdin the world up so they can pass through man i really hope they're dreams come true cause my face is goin numb an my lips turnin blue an this shivers startin to shake my chest ill confess i dont no how much longer I can hold this up.. so yall hurry up wile im holdin back these mountins im just just tired of movin mountains im just tired ya I mean ill bear it for any of yall you no me I got it I no I no long as I dont break no mistakes ya we can even call it great chaulk it up too fate That be great not some much weight.. I guess im relyin on fate Yull be great.... I no just hearin this probably has u worried Don't worry I won't fall.... Mother fucker I ball! Back against the wall ya gonna need a new wall back crackin at the drywall its pretty wild yall Feel it in every bone screamin in my dome demon screamin you can ease up angel throwin up holdin this bitch up grittin teeth call it peace while they play an im just day dreamin just one more day its all I need for them too succeed knees screamin I just need a seat See there aint one up here for me Diggin my heels in plantin both feet tell myself just breathe... I know, I know... they'll be great. I just hope I make it long enough to see Hope i make it long enough I can see Breathe ae
