God i have so many questions, So petty as they may be Like , what is it that awaits me in heaven, Will I even make it to see? My whole life living in desperation, just struggling to believe But the only way you knew I'd learn my lesson, would be by you taking bullets for me For years I was chasing after death and destruction, pain and misery The only one's that I could rely on, love just wasn't in the picture for me I resorted to sliding blades across my wrists, and burn marks on my skin No matter far I took it, no matter dark and devilish You sheltered me from myself, and my hatred, the Devil didn't win Then on my knees i heard you tell me this isn't my life to live You just kicked my door in Jesus, you didn't wait to be invited in Now I have my family, and i'm on my way back to my kids I'm so sorry that I left you, I was just so messed up in my head I was just hurting so deeply and badly, I was chasing after death It's not your fault , don't blame yourselves, I'm the cause, I'm better now I have you and our Gods help, goodbye darkness my old friend, it's time to let you go My eyes are finally opened, I can finally grow Goodbye darkness , you can't have me anymore You've taken enough from me, no more closed and locked doors, no more pain and suffering God i have so many questions, So petty as they may be Like , what is it that awaits me in heaven, Will I even make it to see? My whole life living in desperation, just struggling to believe But the only way you knew I'd learn my lesson, would be by you taking bullets for me
